The Fulfilling Exhaustion Of The Part-Time Artist
There are two types of exhaustion.
The first one comes from your day job. It’s the end result of a stressful day, a difficult mental task or a concentrated working session that depletes you of your energy. This kind of fatigue is more like weariness.
Through the week, when you get home, however tired, you flush your mind about your art and what you can do about it. It comes so naturally that you might not consider it as an art but just an extension of yourself. Even though you don’t have the prerequisite mental energy, you sit down and start expressing yourself. It doesn’t matter how tired you are. You access a small room filled with energy by opening a door called “What I deeply enjoy to work on” (a working title).
The second one is about your art.
Compared to your main job, time spend in your art, pass like water from a waterfall through your hands. In the weekends you’ll gladly “work” all day in your art without even thinking about it, and pause for lunch or coffee. When the night comes, you throw yourself on the bed experiencing tiredness that differs from that of your day job. Of course, you feel exhausted, but there is a sensation of fulfillment in it.
You know that you gave yourself in what you did.
Your sleep is much better since your body and mind has released the creative dose of the day.
Right before sleep takes over; you wish that this kind of fulfilling fatigue will be waiting for you at the end of each day.
Just as a well-filled day brings blessed sleep, so a well-employed life brings a blessed death. — Leonardo da Vinci
