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nobody else saw, not even me when reacquainted with the pulses of the everyday world.</p><p id="9c95">It may have been wandering, or boredom, or self-destructive behavior that led me into the bathroom at the blue level of Madison Square Garden with Keegan, a friend from boarding school. I was getting ready to drop two windowpanes of a four-way hit. Whatever I was seeking, I knew that, at the very least, this dose would provide a counter-irritant to douse the peat-fire of boredom and wanting burning in my guts.</p><p id="4657">Keegan asked me how many panes I wanted to take.</p><p id="c93a">I asked, “how many are you going to take”?</p><p id="9068">He said, “two”.</p><p id="46ca">I said, “I’ll take two, then.”</p><p id="b8c7">Soon after I took them he told me that he had dosed on this same acid two days before, which would mean that he had some resistance to the batch and was doubling his intake to make sure he got high. What it meant for me was that if the acid was any good I was going to get very high, and the acid was good.</p><p id="a94e">Whether what Keegan had done was “mean”, “unfair”, “stupid”, “dangerous”, “funny”, or “not a big deal”, wasn’t a question I asked at the time. It was two decades before I began to realize that some of my “friends” were not my friends. It may be of no surprise to people older than fifty that many of the people I once called “friends” were really transactional acquaintances forged in a furnace of boredom and need. At some point in my life (like, about age forty) there was the awful realization that some of the people I referred to as “friends” were simply people that let me hang out with them. They didn’t actively humiliate or shun me, and so, to my adolescent pollywog brain, they were “friends”, even if there was no reciprocity in our relationship.</p><p id="ba48">Keegan was not someone I hung onto. In the brutal pecking order of boarding school hierarchy he and I were roughly equal, though we shouldn’t have been. Keegan was smart and funny, but he was also overweight, messy, and occasionally obstinate, in the kind of peevish way that eventually stops making sense. In a milieu where sports, good looks, and emotional control counted in the calculation of your social credit score, I could fairly count Keegan as an “equal” despite the fact that he was a more compelling, charismatic, and engaging character than I was.</p><p id="9ded">Keegan had another strike against him that may be hard to explain nowadays. His parents were divorced and he was being raised by a single mother. Why that information reflected poorly on him is a topic for another serving of dreck, but there is no question that my dysfunctional, alcohol-soaked, “in-tact” nuclear family gave me a lift. Keegan’s mother, who was smart but stranded economically (though not so stranded that she couldn’t afford boarding school for her son) came to parent’s day alone, or didn’t come at all. While that information seems like it would be the last thing that teenage boys would care about, somehow it factored into the equation, and, in ways that confuse both logic and analysis, made it easier for us to take Keegan himself less seriously.</p><p id="6a81">As I look back at it, I don’t think Keegan was being a dick when he gave me the double dose. We can explain it away by using the euphemism, “he was being mischievous”. He saw it as a prank. Had he not died of a drug overdose when we were in our twenties, I am certain that today he would be willing to either apologize or explain to me why he didn’t need to apologize. I’m sorry he can’t do that.</p><h2 id="ba57">Part II: The Trip</h2><p id="4aa8">After dropping the acid in the bathroom, a metallic flush began on my tongue and filled my entire mouth while we were walking on the concourse towards our seats. I was seeing vivid color trails before any music started. When the Grateful Dead came out, I couldn’t quite fathom what was happening. All I saw was Gerry Garcia’s great gray set of hair mushrooming and breathing as he took the stage. His hair kept expanding until it filled more than a third of the Garden. Then then band began to play.</p><p id="6d9d">Here is the a recording in the concert. There is a crash at the beginning of the opening number, <i>Mississippi Half-Step</i>, which I clearly remember, though at the time, I couldn’t make any sense of it.</p> <figure id="f154"> <div> <div> <img class="ratio" src="http://placehold.it/16x9"> <iframe class="" src="https://cdn.embedly.com/widgets/media.html?src=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fembed%2Fs_PakceAHxs%3Ffeature%3Doembed&amp;display_name=YouTube&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3Ds_PakceAHxs&amp;image=https%3A%2F%2Fi.ytimg.com%2Fvi%2Fs_PakceAHxs%2Fhqdefault.jpg&amp;key=a19fcc184b9711e1b4764040d3dc5c07&amp;type=text%2Fhtml&amp;schema=youtube" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="480" width="854"> </div> </div> </figure></iframe></div></div></figure><p id="06c9">Throughout the concert Keegan and I stayed in our seats. At one point a Deadhead “twirler” came up to our tier and spent what seemed like hours Grateful Dead dancing.</p> <figure id="9bcf"> <div> <div> <img class="ratio" src="http://placehold.it/16x9"> <iframe class="" src="https://cdn.embedly.com/widgets/media.html?src=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fembed%2FtmBIgvOYfLw&amp;display_name=YouTube&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DtmBIgvOYfLw&amp;image=http%3A%2F%2Fi.ytimg.com%2Fvi%2FtmBIgvOYfLw%2Fhqdefault.jpg&amp;key=a19fcc184b9711e1b4764040d3dc5c07&amp;type=text%2Fhtml&amp;schema=youtube" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="480" width="854"> </div> </div> </figure></iframe></div></div></figure><p id="ef40">I must have been smoking. I didn’t really smoke much as a kid, but I didn’t “not smoke” and since almost everyone in the world smoked, I sometimes did. Two girls came up to our seats and asked to bum a cigarette from me. I ha

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d a pack of Marlboros, but I couldn’t find them in the Vietnam era army jacket I was wearing. I had taken the jacket off, so I just kept turning it over and over looking through various pockets, it began to look like a carnival ride of pickle green cubby-holes. The girls stared expectantly, Keegan kept up a running commentary under his breath that they couldn’t hear:</p><p id="c961">“They’re <i>still</i> waiting. The two girls are waiting patiently while the stoned kid paws at his jacket pockets and grunts. No, that’s a lighter, Gutbloom. A lighter is not a pack of cigarettes, even if you stare at it for a long, long, time. What’s this? Hurray! You found something. A ticket! which is also not a pack of cigarettes….” etc., etc.</p><p id="46a0">After I gave the girls cigarettes, they walked away, and then the ceiling of Madison Square Garden touched the floor.</p><p id="90b4">Forty years ago I might have been able to tell you the peculiar hallucinations that accompanied individual songs. Some of those visions still color my emotional reaction to those tunes if I listen to them now, which I seldom do.</p><p id="1111">More memorable is the image of Keegan and his younger brother, who met us after the concert, standing on a New York City street trying to figure out which way was east. I was quite certain I knew, and I pointed north and said, “That’s uptown”, then pointed south and said, “that’s downtown, so that,” pointing east, “must be east.” I don’t remember if they agreed.</p><p id="d787">We went into an arcade in Times Square named Playland.</p><figure id="4e7d"><img src="https://cdn-images-1.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:800/1*MPnG0QZ1e9-LcTsYgF3z0g.jpeg"><figcaption><a href="https://weber-street-photography.com/2015/08/01/playland-times-sq-1985/">“Playland” Times Sq. 1985, ©Matt Weber</a>. Used without permission.</figcaption></figure><p id="d46d">When I told my brother about my adventure a few weeks after the fact, he told me that Playland was one of the “crusiest places on the planet and I was lucky I wasn’t swarmed by <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chickenhawk_(gay_slang)">chickenhawks</a>.” I wasn’t. No chickenhawks that I remember. No people. There were people, but I don’t remember them. I just remember the green lines of the video game and the sound that the tanks made when they materialized.</p><figure id="e2bc"><img src="https://cdn-images-1.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:800/1*wvY5F25mQqrqBt2iPefnlQ.gif"><figcaption></figcaption></figure><p id="bdd2">There was nothing epic about my trip to the land of Nod. All of the epic was inside my head. From the outside, we were just messy stoned kids wandering around the city.</p><p id="a983">We made it Grand Central Station before the last New Haven Line commuter train had departed for the suburbs. On it, we joined a group of Deadheads from Rye that Keegan knew. They were another dirty lot. One of them was even wearing a top hat. Someone had a tape recorder, and they were playing the concert we had just attended.</p><p id="5c29">An argument broke out between Keegan and someone else about whether the Dead had played the “Weather Report Suite” at the concert (they hadn’t).</p><p id="834d">I wasn’t a Deadhead and had no interest in the argument. At the time I wasn’t impressed by the Rye kids. My ignorance was so complete that I could arrogantly dismiss that which I knew nothing about on the thinnest shred of misunderstood and badly reasoned evidence. I only knew what I knew, which was painfully little, but I was certain <a href="https://readmedium.com/there-s-no-place-like-home-a218b7891be3">that my beloved suburb</a> was in every way superior to Rye, and, so, by the deductive process that renders simple ignorance into mindnumbingly cocksure adolescent arrogance, I figured that the kids from Rye were somehow “wanting” and I shouldn’t waste my time on them.</p><p id="c296">Little did I know that Rye was the town where Ogden Nash lived, where the Dick Van Dyke Show was set, and that gave us Nick Kroll. I thought it was simply the backdrop for <a href="https://playlandpark.org/">Rye Playland</a>. There was plenty I could have enjoyed in Rye.</p><p id="91f2">Some time in the morning we tumbled out onto the station platform and, still as a group, went to a downtown diner that was open. I had a plate of eggs that wiggled, breathed, and grew hairs. My mouth was full of the chemical taste of speedy acid and I knew that I would be awake for at least eight more hours.</p><p id="d68b">We left the wandering pack of Deadheads and made it back to Keegan’s house as dawn arrived. His mother was awake.</p><p id="d19a">Keegan went immediately downstairs.</p><p id="6e00">His mother and I talked for a long time in the kitchen. Mrs. Keegan was kind and interesting… interesting because she seemed genuinely interested in me. She, like my mother, was a Westover graduate, and I had the realization that she was just like one of my aunts… could be one of my aunts… sitting at the kitchen table and making deceptively sophisticated small talk. I didn’t know much, but I knew she was shrouding her concern for both me and her son in her subtle and psychologically-sophisticated set of questions. Her rejoinders to my answers were sagacious. I wish I could remember them.</p><p id="c82b">For all the Koans I could recite (“Why does the Buddha come from the East?”) or snippets of the Tao Te Ching I could burp out (“The name that can be named..”) I didn’t recognize one of the Masters even while she was instructing me. Of course I couldn’t see her. If I had, I would have had to recognize her sister rabbi who was in the kitchen at my house. These boddhisattvas, who understood, endured, and knew so much, were willing to put their own “desires” aside in an attempt to feed and care for pupa hell bent on fucking up their yet-to-be spun cocoons.</p><p id="d2f6">I wish I knew then what I know now. I had met the goddess on my non-ayahuasca trip.</p><p id="5733">But I didn’t know. I went downstairs into Keegan’s basement bedroom to smoke pot, listen to Jethro Tull, and watch the walls swim.</p></article></body>

The French Fred and Rose West

The horrific true story of Michel Fourniret and Monique Olivier

Michel Fourniret and Monique Olivier — Image Source: Wikimedia Commons

Born in 1942 in Sedan, France, near the Belgian border, Michel Fourniret hailed from a family where his father worked as a metalworker, and his mother was a farmer’s daughter. During his childhood, Fourniret, a quiet child with a slightly above-average IQ, displayed an affinity for chess and classical music.

However, his adult life was marked by struggles in maintaining employment. Despite attempts at various jobs, including forestry worker and school supervisor, Fourniret faced repeated failures. It was through a series of convictions that his true and disturbing vocation became evident.

In 1966, Michel Fourniret faced his initial arrest for child molestation, a crime that marked the end of his first marriage. Despite fathering three children with his second wife, this union also crumbled when he was arrested yet again, this time for the rape and indecent assault of minors.

During his custody awaiting trial, Fourniret sought connection through an advertisement in a Catholic magazine, seeking a pen-pal. Monique Olivier, a nurse and mother of three, responded to this plea. Having endured a stammer in childhood and a series of abusive relationships in adulthood, Olivier made a dark pact with Fourniret — she vowed to aid him in ‘hunting virgins’ if he assisted in eliminating her former husband.

However, only one aspect of this macabre deal would come to fruition.

Psychologists might speculate that Fourniret’s fixation on virgins was connected to his struggles with premature ejaculation, with only virgins lacking the experience to criticize his condition. What is known is that part of Olivier’s grisly responsibilities involved physically inspecting the victims before Fourniret raped them to ensure they met his criteria.

Upon Fourniret’s release in 1987, dubbed a ‘model prisoner’ for his early release, Olivier, his ‘bloody muse,’ awaited him at the prison gates. Two months later, the chilling killing spree commenced.

In December 1987, the sinister duo embarked on their spree, claiming their first victim. 17 year old Isabelle Laville fell prey to their deceitful ploy as they intercepted her on her route home from school. Under the pretense of being lost, they lured her into their van, where Fourniret perpetrated unspeakable horrors, culminating in her tragic demise.

A year later, their reign of terror persisted with the abduction of 20-year-old Fabienne Leroy from a supermarket. The subsequent discovery of her lifeless body, bearing the grim evidence of a fatal gunshot wound to the chest, only underscored the chilling nature of their crimes.

Undeterred by the horror they unleashed, the couple exchanged vows and welcomed a son into their dark world. Acquiring a chateau nestled in the forested borderlands between France and Belgium, reports suggested Fourniret financed this purchase with ill-gotten gains from a bank robber and militant cellmate. Pursuing his twisted agenda, he hunted down the cellmate’s wife, extracted information about the concealed money, and ruthlessly silenced her forever.

In 1989, the couple claimed their youngest victim, 12 year old Elisabeth Brichet, abducted from the Belgian town of Namur. Fourteen years later, the grim discovery of her remains within the confines of the couple’s ominous chateau sealed the haunting legacy of their crimes.

Presenting a facade of an idyllic family, complete with their son, they skillfully portrayed an image of trustworthiness, luring unsuspecting girls who might otherwise be cautious. Fourniret and Olivier, with their son in tow, employed various ruses to deceive their victims. At times, they pretended their son was unwell, seeking assistance to navigate to a hospital. Another ploy involved Olivier driving alone, picking up a girl, and then, while on the road, encountering Fourniret waving an empty petrol can, feigning a need for a refill. Subsequently, Olivier would stop to pick him up.

Fourniret’s methods of violence varied, ranging from strangulation to shooting, and sometimes injecting air into his victims’ veins to induce a fatal heart attack. Unfortunately, death offered no reprieve from his depravity. After stabbing one girl to death with a screwdriver, he proceeded to sexually assault her lifeless body. Olivier, complicit in these heinous acts, witnessed the rapes and murders, with the couple later reenacting these gruesome scenes in their twisted sex life.

The disposal of bodies was either within Fourniret’s grounds or the surrounding area. The spree of killings spanned years, yet authorities treated each case in isolation. The lack of collaboration between French and Belgian police hindered information sharing, preventing the realization that the Ardennes region bore an unusually high murder rate due to a serial killer making it his hunting ground.

Evading the pursuit of an investigatory task force, the malevolent couple might have eluded arrest if not for the daring escape of one of their victims. In 2003, Fourniret attempted to abduct yet another girl, audaciously asserting his superiority over the recently apprehended Belgian paedophile and serial killer, Marc Dutroux.

However, the girl orchestrated a remarkable escape, gnawing through the ropes binding her wrists and leaping out of the van at a set of traffic lights. Before making her getaway, she astutely recorded his vehicle’s registration.

When the police questioned both Fourniret and Olivier, they remained oblivious to the fact that they were dealing with the French counterparts of Fred and Rose West. Olivier, laboring under the mistaken belief that the police possessed more information than they did, chose to confess in the hope of securing a reduced sentence.

The initial confession centered around a murder reminiscent of the disappearance of Leeds University student Joanna Parish in Burgundy in 1990. Confronted with this revelation, Fourniret admitted to a plethora of murders, intriguingly omitting acknowledgment of the one resembling Joanna Parish’s tragic fate.

Fourniret made an unusual request during his trial, asking female jurors to prove their virginity at the time of marriage, a plea swiftly denied, much like his unsuccessful bid to exclude the media.

Throughout the two-month trial in Charleville-Mezières, eastern France, Fourniret exhibited uncooperative behavior, frequently refusing to speak and displaying a complete absence of emotion or remorse. However, a momentary eruption of anger surfaced when he learned that, based on IQ tests, his seemingly subservient wife surpassed him in intelligence.

The state prosecutor painted a grim picture, describing Fourniret as a ‘necrophiliac monster’ and characterizing the duo of Fourniret and Monique as a ‘devil with two faces’.

While Monique did express remorse, the state prosecutor criticized her ‘deafening silence’ in response to the victims’ cries, given her active role in securing them. Whether she found solace in being an observer rather than a direct victim of physical abuse remains unclear. Nevertheless, she was found guilty of being her husband’s accomplice in at least five murders and was sentenced to serve a minimum of 28 years of her life sentence.

Michel Fourniret, convicted of murdering seven girls, met his demise in jail in May 2021 at the age of 79.

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