The Day I Fell In Love With An Old Man, And Why I Didn’t Tell Him

Share Your Feelings

A few years ago, during my last holiday abroad with a friend, I fell in love with an old man.

On a rainy evening, we reached the hotel by the seaside where we had booked a room. Marc, the owner, came to open the door. As soon as I saw him, the world stopped, and my feelings completely changed. I forgot about the stress of traveling, about my tiredness, and about myself.

I suddenly felt I loved him. I imagine that he realized my unusual reaction because, even if I was the one who booked the room and kept contact with him, he started talking to my friend, who is a boy, and turned to him during our stay.

Every day I looked for Marc at the breakfast table, and during our relaxing moments on the terrace. I tried to realize who he was, to understand something about the person who was suddenly in control of my thoughts.

I didn’t dare to say anything because I felt like a stupid young student who falls in love with her teacher, and I didn’t want to embarrass him and my friend. I was afraid he could laugh at me and tell me wise sentences to diminish the importance of my feelings. I feared his rejection.

The day we left I felt like crying. I sent Marc a thank you message, to which he didn’t reply. I checked all comments on the internet about his hotel, and I saw many notes of women explaining how nice he was as a guest, so I thought I might just be one of the many who fell for this attractive old man.

For a long time, I imagined we could meet during his next visit to Italy, which he knew well, or I could go and work in his hotel. I even dreamt of him. It took me some time to forget about him and our future together, and go on with my life. I never shared any of these feelings, which took a lot of my energy and time. Marc didn’t know anything about it, maybe he just felt something since he noticed me staring at him.

How often do you keep your feelings for yourself? Why don’t you speak up, is it because of fear of rejection?

Here are some points I have considered after I denied and canceled my emotions too often. I think they show why sharing your feelings is important.

1-You feel relieved after you speak about them. They are out in the world, they can’t hurt you from inside.

2-You will not be the one who puts an end to a story before it even happened. You will not have censored yourself and gave no future to your feelings.

3-You will receive an unexpected reaction because you don’t know what the other person will say. And maybe the reaction will be a very pleasant one.

4. You will give a special gift to another person and make his life better. How many of us feel they are not loved, or they are not interesting enough? If I had spoken to Marc, maybe he would have noticed me or thought about me, or he would have been happy because a young girl from Italy fell in love with him at first sight. Which is also nice for a person’s self-esteem.

But most of all, you will be proud of yourself and you will value your feelings and your soul, which is the most important part of your being. You will have cherished them, and let them go. You will have faced your fear of rejection and survived.

I controlled myself and didn’t share lots of emotions for a long time. It was a mistake. In the future, I hope I will be able to communicate my feelings as much as possible and feel ready to face the consequences.

I know it is not easy to tell someone: “I think I am in love with you” a few minutes after you met him, and maybe you might sound too impulsive. Yet I find we should all enjoy life more because it’s only sharing our deepest feelings that we show who we really are.

I hope my article gives some joy to all the persons who unknowingly create positive feelings and give new life to our inner world, including Marc.