The Ambiguity of Feeling
A poem about existential thoughts before coffee
I meander to the void and back existential placards upon the edge of space
I ponder love-struck sunsets in vortex yaw, twists of fate reflections in the mirror to ascend
What axiomatic kisses can undo these chains to free thee from time’s Möbius loop blame?
Those endless mistakes monologues in bathroom stalls wondering when my flame will burn again
Have I made and un-made myself enough for you to come back? Somehow I got lost in singularities cold hands
And as the water bubbles and sings percolating through caliginous beans I wonder what tomorrow shall bring?
Shall I see the truth in smiles or doubt in tears? Shall I find meaning in octopi hearts or death in mortal’s frowning mirrors?
Shall I create with words so fleeting? Do cosmic expanses rise in blackhole hills, to feel real as the sound of spring leaves trill?
I wonder. I doubt. I fear.
And when the moment draws nigh I sip that darkness and settle into, matters endless meadows, now clear.
© Bradley J Nordell 2020






