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Summary

"The Ambiguity of Feeling" is a contemplative poem exploring existential themes and the search for meaning before the clarity of morning coffee.

Abstract

The poem "The Ambiguity of Feeling" delves into the depths of existential thought, capturing the essence of pre-coffee contemplation. It traverses the void of space and the intricacies of love, questioning the nature of time and fate. The author reflects on past mistakes and the yearning for a rekindled passion, all while grappling with the concept of self in the face of the universe's vastness. The poem culminates in the simple act of brewing coffee, which serves as a metaphor for the percolation of thoughts and the anticipation of tomorrow's possibilities. Through vivid imagery and philosophical inquiry, the poem suggests that meaning may be found in the mundane as well as the cosmic, and that even in doubt and fear, there is a moment of clarity and resolution.

Opinions

  • The author ponders the profound impact of love and its intertwining with fate and self-identity.
  • There is a sense of seeking absolution from the past and the desire for renewal or return of a lost connection.
  • The poem conveys a struggle with the concept of time, viewing it as a restrictive force from which the speaker seeks freedom.
  • The act of making coffee is personified, symbolizing the process of thought and the potential for enlightenment.
  • The speaker questions whether truth and meaning are found in the joyous or sorrowful aspects of life, or even in the depths of the cosmos.
  • The poem reflects a fear of the unknown and the vastness of the universe, yet also a willingness to confront these fears.
  • The final acceptance of the coffee's darkness represents an embrace of life's ambiguities and the pursuit of understanding.

The Ambiguity of Feeling

A poem about existential thoughts before coffee

Photo by Ronaldo Arthur Vidal on Unsplash

I meander to the void and back existential placards upon the edge of space

I ponder love-struck sunsets in vortex yaw, twists of fate reflections in the mirror to ascend

What axiomatic kisses can undo these chains to free thee from time’s Möbius loop blame?

Those endless mistakes monologues in bathroom stalls wondering when my flame will burn again

Have I made and un-made myself enough for you to come back? Somehow I got lost in singularities cold hands

And as the water bubbles and sings percolating through caliginous beans I wonder what tomorrow shall bring?

Shall I see the truth in smiles or doubt in tears? Shall I find meaning in octopi hearts or death in mortal’s frowning mirrors?

Shall I create with words so fleeting? Do cosmic expanses rise in blackhole hills, to feel real as the sound of spring leaves trill?

I wonder. I doubt. I fear.

And when the moment draws nigh I sip that darkness and settle into, matters endless meadows, now clear.

© Bradley J Nordell 2020

Poetry
Coffee
Philosophy
Existentialism
Creativity
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