The Amazonian Woman
Her honest words were: come back, I want to be with you.

You’re incredible, but somewhere, something of what you are is alien to me, not to be judged by superficial standards, morals, ethics, but something curiously dirty, known only to the tramp in you.
Sometimes the Amazonian woman, painted mask, never found without deep exploration. Or the woman in Vegas, legs up to her throat, won on a one-hit-moment or found kneeling between church pews with prayers for sinners.
Most pastry days, the woman in the kitchen, apron loosely bound, hair tied, shoeless with powdered cheeks. No longer the child in the village square, making arm-windmills, daring the weathercock to turn, a child before the saliva kisses, probing fingers, as heavy dew moistens lips.
The breast bearer, the child carrier, crazed under fevered limbs before the savage moans quiet, a beautiful stillness, the desire for solitude descends. Newborn demands made on love, a plan for the course of life, education, travel, Hampton Court to Paris, holy chapels, shores to visit, let go from arms as wide as the sea.
The woman who bleeds no more, an accident of magic and mystery, living in a diluvian light that only love can show. The prime mover of destinies, embodiment of men’s desires and sins, not gone, submerged in rediscovered measure.
I cannot lay my head down without her; seeing only the edge of wonder, living in some interstellar space between her and what is real. Once so thunderstruck, streaked with blood, darkness ever creeping like sharp ice, pissing holes on the world, chased by a thousand wolves, the swarming terrors, fugitive of a thousand questions.
I didn’t know if her love was trickery or treason, a swamp or a sea, or why she would look upon a face, pitted, racked, showing signs of absolute madness. A buccaneer, witty, clever, a gypsy with a mandolin heart, but bringing only the taste of bad dreams, sinister demons.
Against a London fall of snow, she came, a woman whose love shone like steel, with flaming eyes, a place of rest and light living in a world previously unlooked-for and I kissed the summer’s dawn. Amid the ballet of busy streets, nights remembered, magical chemistry, impossible melodies, an Amazonian woman appeared with a painted face holding an angel’s harpsichord.





