The Addiction No One Talks About

And there are no support groups

I have mentioned my addiction before but I really have not thought about it much lately — until yesterday.

Before I proceed I should mention that I am addicted to the sun. It feels good to admit that but I must point out that I DO NOT have a tanning addiction. While it is crucially important to our health that we get regular sun exposure on our skin, that has very little to do with my addiction. My addiction is to sunny days. I can be indoors with no sun exposure on my body and if the sun is shining outside I am happy, euphoric, high. If it is cloudy outside I start jonesing for the sun.

I was reminded of my serious addiction yesterday. After a blizzard and two days without sunshine, yesterday we had a vibrantly sunny day without a cloud in the sky. I had a really, really good day yesterday. I was so happy. I was filled with energy and optimism and gratitude. Everything went my way and every little activity was exciting and joyous.

The contrast between the cloudy days and yesterday’s sunny day was so blatantly obvious that I could not help but notice it and be reminded of my addiction.

Perhaps my addiction started back during childhood when I lived in the Great Southwest Desert where the sun shines around 360 days a year. Ever since then I have not been able to handle more than about five or six cloudy days a year (provided those days are not consecutive).

My addiction really became apparent during the year I lived in the state of Washington in the Pacific Northwest where cloudy days far, far outnumber sunny days. It was the closest I’ve ever come to experiencing clinical depression. But then I moved back to the sunny desert and I was instantly cured.

Because of the sunshine.

Maybe my addiction has something to do with having an Aries sun sign. Most people will automatically dismiss that as crackpot woo-woo but I leave it open as a contributing possibility.

But there is another branch of astrology known as astro-cartography. This involves geography. It maps out where all our planets were moving across the planet the moment we were born thus showing what specific geographic locations resonate to which astrological influences. I commissioned a detailed astro-cartography reading about thirty years ago. Looking back at all the many places I’ve lived during my life I was amazed by the accuracy of the report.

Well, I haven’t looked at that report in many years but yesterday I decided to take another look at it since I decided to become a climate change refugee and move somewhere that was more meteorologically and vibrationally compatible. Where I am right now is very challenging.

It took me about half an hour to find the report but when I did I remembered that there are very few ‘good places’ for me to live in America. The two most optimum places on the planet for me to live are Mexico City and northern Afghanistan. Afghanistan is simply out of the question. While Mexico City has a climate that I could be comfortable in, I am just far too lazy to learn Spanish. (Heck, I’m still learning English.)

I may be yearning to be a climate change refugee but I really want to stay in America. Surprisingly, the report indicates that the Great Southwest Desert is not very astrologically compatible for me despite my strong history and love of the area. There are only two precise locations, one on each coast, that provide a very positive astrological vibe.

I have been told by numerous astrologers, psychics and assorted crackpots that I really, really, really need to live near an ocean or very large body of water. I need that water to temper the over-the-top, out-of-control fire in the rest of my chart. Given my love of beaches, this is advice I can get onboard with.

The location in the east is sunny, hot and humid but there are no mountains. I’ve been there and the vibes are exquisite. The location in the west has mountains but it is not hot and it is prone to fog at certain times of the year. Sure, the fog is usually in the morning and burns off as the day progresses. My concern is how that would affect my early morning sunrise spiritual practices. I’ve never been there.

While the vibes should be optimum, my concern with the west coast location is that at certain times of year there may not be enough sunshine to maintain my hopeless addiction. But that is the location I am currently leaning towards. Spirit travels from east to west so if I moved to the east coast I’d be going backwards. I always get the heebee jeebies when I cross the Mississippi River heading east. So to begin my refugee status I feel that I need to head west.

As everyone can see, my sunshine addiction isn’t my only problem.

But it helps to talk about one’s addictions, right? I guess that’s what I just did. I do, in fact, feel a little bit better.

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