Thankful

I’ve been blessed with an incredibly loving and supportive family. Immense shame due to my carelessness had drained any inspiration and motivation for me to want help, and thus I did not take advantage of the excessive help and support I received. I now am healing and rebuilding relationships that had been damaged for so long. I feared feeling happiness because once sustained for a period of time, I would begin to feel bored and take those who brought me joy for granted while I dreamt of receiving even more. And I actually thought I deserved it.

I now am working towards appreciating and being thankful for all life has offered me. And there is so much. Finding contentment and satisfaction in simplicity has been key while I find acceptance in the life I have been sent. I calm and realize I don’t need to achieve greatness or change the world to find fulfillment and peace in life. I have always wanted all, and if I lack luck or talent while working towards that, I shut down and receive nothing in return. I now breath balance as I look towards the future and tightly hold onto resilience as I know I’ll continue to experience failure as I move forward.