
Tell me how to fall in love
Butterflies
Tell me how to fall in love. I would say, how is it that you meet one person and everything changes. I’m talking to god at this point because I don’t understand it. One look to getting close by. I feel lost. I’m not much of a love person, but that kiss is like no other.
I stay quiet as I wonder, why, why me. I’ve been through a lot. How can one night with another human mean so much. How can I lay with someone and never want to let go. How in my life did I change my mind. I felt something big coming but never like that.
Why do I want to go to church to pray. This is different everything I’ve ever wanted. Yet I feel scared to say it out load. “What are your future plans?” Was a question. In my heart that has changed, does it matter? I sit here in the mist of my rise and the moment I knew, I just did. It’s scary when material things don’t matter, when the money is our life support. When in life you find someone that kisses you and everything stops existing. I get the movies now. Some how in my life right now I’m all messed up. That has been a big thing in my life, what do I want? It’s is wrong to say, I love to write, I love my books, I’m not much for money, but there’s something that in life I feared and when I laid with him I felt it. When I woke up next to him. It all didn’t feel important.
I don’t know what to say, just getting ready to step up to god because I don’t understand anything but time is limited and mostly we live life wrong to survive. I know what I feel, and I wonder. What god wants. Prayer, love, peace. I’m in place I’ve never been. I don’t want to stay still but I do. My soul is on the most woman that belongs to man stage. I’m scared, I am never lonely as I can replace that with thoughts and water but yet I found myself waking up not in his arms and wishing things weren’t that way. “What do you want in your future?” My real answer “you” but I will never say, it’s not something easy to say.
Maybe god bless me and guide me. Amen

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