avatarDiana C.

Summary

The author reflects on the personal struggle with surrendering to life's circumstances, despite understanding the benefits of faith and trust in the Universe.

Abstract

The article "Surrendering To What Is" delves into the author's internal conflict between surrendering to the flow of life and the natural resistance fueled by doubts and fears. Although the author wishes to embody a state of unwavering faith and acceptance, they acknowledge the difficulty in doing so, especially when faced with personal challenges. The narrative reveals a cycle of doubt, control, and regret, juxtaposed with moments of gratitude for the Universe's guidance and the manifestation of love and abundance when the heart is open. The author expresses a deep understanding that everything needed has been provided, yet fears continue to surface, causing emotional turmoil. The piece concludes with an apology for the emotional outpouring, emphasizing the necessity of releasing these emotions to write authentically about faith.

Opinions

  • The author admits to struggling with surrendering to life's events, despite the desire to do so without resistance.
  • There is an acknowledgment of the Universe's infinite patience and compassion, and gratitude for daily opportunities to strengthen faith.
  • The author expresses self-criticism for allowing doubts and fears to dominate, and for attempting to control circumstances despite past evidence of guidance and abundance.
  • A sense of frustration is conveyed for having access to the Universe's resources yet still experiencing fear and doubt.
  • The author values sincerity and openness of the heart as a means to experience love and manifest abundance.
  • There is a recognition that writing about faith necessitates an honest confrontation with one's emotional state, including doubts and fears.

Surrendering To What Is

Inspired by this week’s prompt.

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I wish I could start this article by saying that I embrace whatever comes my way with no resistance.

I wish I could say I surrender easily.

I wish I could claim my faith is stronger than my insecurities…

But I can’t, because sometimes, that’s not the case. At this very moment, as my fingertips touch the keyboard, I realize how difficult surrender has been lately.

I have tears in my eyes as I am writing these words. Yet again, I am doubting the Universe. Yet again, I think I know better.

I keep allowing my doubts and fears to get the best of me. I still attempt to control certain circumstances. My apologies…It is a challenging lesson to learn.

The Universe is an infinite source of patience and compassion. I am grateful to be given another chance to faith each day as I awaken from my slumber.

Every single time I’ve been in need of guidance, I received it.

Whenever I sincerely opened up my heart, love manifested in my life in miraculous ways.

Abundance too.

Everything that was ever required, manifested beautifully.

So how can I still have doubts? How can I still resist? I have access to the unlimited resources of the Universe, yet here I am. Writing this with tears in my eyes because my fears are eating me alive…

Apologies for this rant, but I couldn’t have written on faith without getting these emotions out first. Thank you for reading and thank you for understanding.

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