Poetry
Surrender
A poem about breaking free
No more hiding No more behind the scenes Or on the stage with a mask that has become so tightly glued Glued to my face that I can’t seem to get it off Yet I somehow manage to force it off because it is hurting me It is hurting me in ways I couldn’t have imagined Leaving bruises and scars
I gather my strength and pull it off And I feel free, Oh so free I had no idea that it would feel so good But what now? Suddenly another feeling arises What is this feeling? I don’t understand Freedom suddenly transforms But why? I am free after all
Without a warning — fear shows up It wants to lock me in again; another mask I am struggling, refusing “I don’t want it”, I shout Fear does not care it wants what it wants I am not strong enough and fear knows It takes advantage of my weakness I am left standing there A simple trade
Not blind yet
I still have my eyes I can see Yes!, I think to myself I feel thankful somehow There is hope, only a small glimpse Yet I have a chance Survival is near I can taste it on my tongue I can see it with my eyes Left and right they look I stop fighting now There is no point
I take my hands off the mask The fight is over No more pain in my chest My hands rest above the stage floor I feel relief It is bittersweet and I taste it all It is okay now; I am safe I breathe with relief; once again I get off the stage The show is done I played my part
At last
Safe at home The body feels weak Yet somehow liberated Before I lay my head down To become one with the night I take a look in the mirror And to my surprise It is only my face that I see It must have fallen off After I just let it all be The mask is gone Sweet freedom I feel How good it is To finally be at peace To be me
At last…






