Stuff on Reddit — PWBPD
People With Borderline Personality Disorder
I like Redditt. There are so many different topics that people talk about, and if I want to spend an amusing hour of entertainment, I know I can find it on that platform.
This morning, just because I hadn’t been there in a while, I popped in for a look. Right now, my favorite subreddit is r/crochet. There was a picture of a wedding dress somebody had made. It was gorgeous. She said it only took her two months to make working an hour at a time. I was amazed. It took me a year and a half to make my fingerless gloves when I was writing at my computer, and the study was frigid.
So, just for fun, I looked her up. I was scrolling down the different posts she’d made on Reddit. That way, you get to see what other things a person is interested in. She’d made a reply to someone’s post in the subreddit BPDlovedones.
I had no idea what that was about and had to look up PWBPD. It means “people with a borderline personality disorder.” I knew about folks with borderline personality disorder, but I didn’t know it had been broken down into five different sections: affective, impulsive, aggressive, dependent, and empty.
I had a boss once who I thought was a narcissist, but she ticked all the boxes people were talking about in this Reddit post. Now, I’m thinking maybe she had this mental illness. Doing a little bit of research, somebody said that bipolar disorder is related to this condition of people with borderline personality disorder.
My father was diagnosed with bipolar when I was in my 30s, and he was in his 50s. We grew up frightened. I mean, scared. Five kids. My mother paid for it in the years before she died in that he was an absolute shit at times, following her around the house, wanting to know who she was talking to on the phone and what exactly they were saying about him. She used to hide in the bathroom and lock the door so she could get away from him. She used to whisper to me on the phone. All of this is bringing up some painful memories for me.
There are stories that he held a gun to her head twice. I only knew about the one time when two of my brothers tackled him to the kitchen floor. But there was a second time I only heard about years after they both had passed on. That was when one of my brothers took all the firearms out of the house.
I remember his cruelty. I was six years old. He cuddled me and asked me if I wanted to hear a joke. A joke? With my daddy? Oh, yes! I was so excited. He asked me, “Have you ever seen a match burn twice?” I said no. He lit a match and blew it out. Then, he touched the business end of the match to my forearm. I screamed. Yeah, shit like that.
So, my mind is on pwbpd — people with borderline personality disorders this morning.
The next thought I had was how interesting it would be to have a character with that. I could do some research on it. Try to correlate how that disorder relates to my father, to various family members affected by it and who also might have it themselves, my ex-narcissistic boss, and why they were in my life in the first place. You wouldn’t have to invent anything. Just apply the disorder to them.
Food for thought.
So here are some things that were said about pwbpd in the post I read this morning:
1. It is their way or the highway. 2. Everybody else is wrong. 3. They appear to be angry a lot of the time. 4. Nothing is ever their fault. 5. Your worst nightmare on Tik-Tok. 6. Someone called it a shitshow. 7. Overly critical and jealous.
I could go on. Just from that one post and all the responses people had. I almost went into overload suddenly thinking there was my father, my ex-boss, and various other people I knew. It’s no wonder I don’t get dressed.
Thanks for reading.
The Links — the one for this story and others I enjoy: 1. The post I read on Redditt about PWBPD People with borderline personality disorder– r/BPDlovedones 2. Crochet SubReddit — r/crochet 3. Cats SubReddit — r/cats 4. Reddit — There are tons of subreddits to look at: Crochet, writing, cooking, old recipes, history, dolls, sewing, woodworking, and cars. I couldn’t find a number. Somebody said 124,000 two years ago, and somebody else said 6k nine years ago. There are a lot.
