Stop Telling Me How to Grieve
This is my journey, not yours!

April 23 2021 will stand out in my mind as long as I live. I got a phone call at work at approximately 8:30 pm. It was from Chuck’s sister.
“Stacey, honey I am sorry Chuck passed away a few minutes ago.”
I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. I lost it even though I knew he was in bad shape. He was in the last stages of terminal colon cancer. I never got to say goodbye! In my delusional mind, he was going to get better.
I grieved on every level, I would go from denial to anger to utter despair.
I no longer felt I belonged in the world. peoples lives went on but I stayed stuck. I still do.
I cant still clean out his belongings and it has been a year now. I don't want to leave my house. My job suffered my life suffered and people just don’t understand.
When someone dies you love you just can't move on and I feel like it is not honoring their memory if you do. That's probably not the correct way to feel but excuse the fuck out of me. I probably would fail grief 101
Some people are well-meaning. They just don't get it though. when they tell me to remember the good times we had and blah blah blah I want to scream!
I am sorry my grief makes you uncomfortable but it's how I feel for god sake!
Stop telling me how to feel. It is my loss and my journey to overcome.






