Stand Up Straight!
I screamed with pain and struggled to stand up. For a moment I felt like I was losing everything under the sun and moon. Fear, frustration, and misery made my life darker and darker!
Have you ever struggled to stand up? When I’m talking about standing up, it has two aspects. One aspect is the physical capability to stand up and walk as we do every day. Another aspect is our mindset, which enables us to face every obstacle and stand up mentally.
So, what do you think? Physical movement or positive mindset. What’s the strongest?
Let me elaborate on my example of standing up!
Many years back at school I was playing with my friends. Every morning before starting the school we used to play little games which include jumping, running and shouting. One fine morning while doing these games I suddenly fell down. I screamed with pain and struggled to get up. Though I didn’t understand what happened exactly. I knew there’s something wrong with my Right leg!
I experienced the same thing a few more times where I suddenly collapsed and my legs gave way beneath me. Due to this malfunction, one time I rolled down from the school stair case and another time was to drown in a pool. There was no time to think or act and within couple of seconds you’ll be collapsed to ground.
I consulted a doctor and he diagnosed it as a ‘Patellar tracking disorder’. Patellar tracking disorder means that the kneecap or patella shifts out of place as the leg bends or straightens. In an observational study of 810 adolescent basketball players, the overall prevalence of patellar tracking disorder was 26% of female and 18% of male players affected. The misalignment of the leg, hip instability and foot eversion are few of the reasons for this disorder as per the research done by US National Institute of Health.
Patellar tracking disorder makes up about 2% of all knee injuries. Usually, it occurs to those who play basketball, soccer, and football. Unfortunately, in my case, it is genetics and difficult to cure completely. The researchers suggest the incidence of patellar dislocation is at 2.29 per 100,000 person per year for all age groups.
In laymen’s language a patellar tracking disorder is a kneecap disorder. The knee cap is placed on the top of the knee joint. The lower leg bone, the thigh bone, together with the muscles and tangents, and the kneecap makes up the knee joint. As all of you are aware, the knee joint is one of the strongest in the human body. It supports the body weight and balance, which enables our everyday movements like walking, running, sitting, and standing. We stand up straight thanks to the knee joint.
The reason for my sudden collapse was my knee cap was shifting out of place. When the knee cap dis-locates, the knee joint collapses, and when the knee cannot bear the body weight the result is a sudden fall. Basically, my knees were not strong enough to support me stand up!
I was assigned to a physiotherapist and my only remedy was exercising every day to strengthen my knee muscles. Soon I was fed up. Due to this disorder, I couldn’t do athletics, I gave up on my favorite hobby of dancing and I felt like I was losing everything I loved.
I started to hate my doctor, my physiotherapists, my friends, and my family. Above all I hated myself. Standing up and walking is something very basic but I required a lot of work to do this single thing. It was very disheartening. I had this unhealthy mentality for a long time until one fine day I found my inspiration.
It was during the civil war in Sri Lanka and I used to visit Physiotherapy clinic thrice a week. One day a very cheerful young soldier came for physiotherapy. He greeted everyone in the clinic. The pajamas he wore indicated that he was an in-house patient for a longer time.
During a war time a person like him was rare specially in a physiotherapy clinic. At once I was taken a back! He had lost both his legs. I asked my therapist, in a hurry why he had come to physiotherapy as both his legs had been amputated from the upper thighs. My therapist answered, he has not come to strengthen the muscles as you do, he has come to practice to learn, to live without both his legs.
The double-amputee still had hopes to stand straight and with both my legs I found a reason to complain. It was not the physical incapability that brought me down but the toxic mindset that was not ready to accept the truth and continue.
For a moment I forgot all about the disorder and I continued the things I missed. I did athletics including hurdle running, high jump, and long jump. I continued dancing until I was ready to stop. I do hiking, climbing jumping, and everything I love to. I never faced a single leg injury during all of this.
I don’t know whether I have fully recovered. The only thing I know is that I am not suffering anymore. I realized that it is not my legs that make me stand up but my mindset that does the magic. Self-mastery is the DNA of life mastery and the boundaries of our lives are merely our own creation.
My dear friends, do not ever fear to stand up as you have a powerful mind that can overcome every obstacle. Do not give up on the things that you love the most as the people who struggle the most in life are the ones who receive the best in the world.
Having a strong body can make us ‘Stand up’, but once our minds are strong, they will also make us ‘Stand Straight’. Standing up or standing straight, the decision is yours!
