Spontaneous Regrets

I like what I said, just not how I said it.

I was encouraged to start submitting my first drafts immediately, instead of holding onto them indefinitely, after reading Susie Pinon’s story:

I Have Been Publishing My First Draft of Articles for Months Now

I still agree with everything that was said, but I now wish I had waited a little bit longer before hitting publish.

Later that morning, I began writing a story about something that had been on my mind since Will Smith did his thing at the Oscars. The whole writing process went smoothly, and I was hitting publish before I knew what was happening.

I felt like I had overcome a huge fear and I was rejoicing all day.

In my story, “I Don’t Need A Man To Stand Up For Me”, I wrote a very personal story about something that happened at the beginning of my marriage.

I love every word I wrote.

I thought I executed what I wanted to say exactly how it happened.

But then…

I had regrets about the “tone” of my story.

The tone of the title and the story is not who I am.

It sounded harsh, and more like the pain and anger that I felt during the described incident, rather than the love and forgiveness, I feel now.

I don’t mind that I told the story.

I don’t mind that whoever reads it knows about what happened.

The story is real and raw, but that wasn’t the end of the story.

The end is that I worked hard to overcome the damage that was done.

I spent years being who I truly am regardless of what anyone thought of me.

I am a loving and generous person who cares deeply for people.

My true person has won this battle.

There is love between all the parties involved in my original story.

THIS is the end I want you to know.

Key Message: Be true to yourself when you write and publish stories.