POETRY | LIFE | DEATH

Someone Once Told Me

That it only gets harder

Someone once told me That it only gets harder, My mind played horrors, But it was my heart that clenched, Under the weight of these words I felt a deep-cutting pain

My mind whispered, ‘We can’t take worse than what We already somehow survived’

Tonight, I remembered, ‘It only gets much harder’ And I looked around for Something or Someone to Hold me, Because I’m falling deeper into this Darkness that’s only expanding

I looked around, and I saw, Fear on my right, Pain on my left, Regrets and mistakes behind, Horrors and death up ahead

‘It only gets much harder’ If that’s the case again My mind whispered, ‘What’s the point of Even trying?’

If even worse horrors are to come, If more battles with demons old and new await, If more knives on the back and in my heart are to come, If the demons in my mind stay till the end and say, ‘we won,’ Then what’s the point of even trying to Make a step today into a worse tomorrow?

‘There’s no point,’ the mind would scream, ‘There’s a point,’ the heart will whisper, Questioning what that may be, Some days go without an answer, Just a knowing, a feeling deep within That life is so much more than pain, That life is a kaleidoscope of colors

And so the question comes, What if you make a step today Into a better tomorrow? What if it gets brighter? I don’t believe that it only Gets much harder

Even if tomorrow there’s worse I know there will be better, too, Because I’ll choose my heart, Because the moon is there, Whether I see it or not I feel its bright light, And no matter what, it always Makes me smile and warms my heart, My light in the dark

Even if tomorrow cuts deeper than shards, Even if I fall, I’ll stand, I never was the type to give up No matter what, Even if I fall and it turns out to be the final fall, I’ll go with a smile, knowing I tried, knowing I chose my heart, and I chose the river, I chose the moon, and I chose the stars, And I saw how precious are both The darkness & light

Tomorrow may be harder, The worst may happen, But tomorrow may be brighter, The best may happen

Living in fear is not what I want to, Yet, some days, it’s hard not to, This was my reminder that Life is many colors, Life sometimes gets harder, But sometimes it gets brighter, The light is within, And I know it’s painful and draining, And I know sometimes life isn’t fair, For which all you want is to surrender And live gently without the warrior’s armor

Remember, life is not only hardships, Among the battles and the demons, There’s light, too, There’s you, There’s love, there’s friendship, There’s the wind, there’s the water

Life is many colors, It’s not all black, Even if sometimes That’s all we see and feel Inside and out, The colors are many Inside you and out there, And I hope for both of us, Me writing this & you reading this To see all the colors within and in this world, To live and not fear tomorrow, To live, feel, and be ourselves

And if our story ends Earlier than we imagined, Then I hope we’ll meet In the next life And every other, Choose ourselves, Choose each other, Love and live With the moonlight Always connecting us Just as it connects us here, In this midnight life Of black holes and constellations Where we sometimes forget How bright we shine Alone & Together

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