Sitting With the Unease of Change

A gentle emergence

I have found myself in this waiting place for quite a few years now, and I’m sure I’m not the only one. These past few years have been like a chaotic storm of sweeping change in my life. It has been longer than two years for me that I have been searching.

I am open and welcoming these changes as they are gently emerging and I am constantly reminding myself to have patience.

It is easy to want to see the results of all your hard internal work paying off, but it takes time to make changes and to see the reality shift.

As I have embraced my power a lot during the past year, a new me has been emerging and in this process sometimes I still feel a bit wobbly.

The gentle emergence of my light is leading me forward. I must remember that everything worth building takes time.

I’m being asked to step out of my comfort zone often and to push myself in ways I had never expected.

I hadn’t realized how strong-willed I was until I was forced to sit with myself in the unease of change. To allow what will be to be.

I got to a point where I couldn’t just do something to fix my situation; I had to change my approach. I had to take methodical action in ways that felt right to me while sitting in the discomfort of the unknown and allowing the universe to work its magic.

I had to learn to work smarter, not harder.

Parts of me have embraced this process wholeheartedly. I have enjoyed slowing down in many ways. Being more mindful about everything from my health, diet, sleep, happiness, what media I consume. This mindful quiet space has allowed me to review my life and reflect upon what I wanted to change and what was working for me.

Also, just to enjoy a cup of tea, a stroll in the garden, and the sun on my skin. I have embraced these sensations like no other before. I have felt the potency of the presence and fallen in love with it.

For all the peace and stillness, I have been immensely grateful.

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.” ― Lao Tzu

On the other hand, the stillness within me and around me ebbs and flows. Still, sometimes I find myself in the grips of fear, anxiety, and the void of darkness and know deep down this is part of the process.

I have been working on releasing old outdated programming that no longer serves me. I have been working through different levels of grief that linger from the past.

I am so overjoyed that now I feel more purpose in life, though.

Even in the darkness lies opportunity and purpose. Sometimes the lightness is harder to receive, as it is something I felt very little of in the past. This is getting easier with time.

Sitting with the unease of change has taught me a lot. It has cemented the idea of security and stability are often an illusion. It has asked me to dig deep and forge these things within myself.

Now I have a stronger center to return to when I am struggling. I remind myself that we are all connected too, and this brings me great solace and peace.

Many of us have been forced into a waiting place where we must sit with the discomfort of change. From this place, we can nurture ourselves to gently emerge into the beautiful butterflies of the future.

Sitting with the unease forges strength and resilience. It asks us to come home to ourselves and return to a place where we can build ourselves up in new ways we never dreamed possible.

If you’re sitting in the unease of change, remember to be kind to yourself. To show yourself gentle compassion and most of all to remember that this is a place necessary to your journey of expansion.