avatarEmily Jennings

Summary

The article discusses the profound impact of a twin flame relationship on an individual's life, particularly when the twin flame has passed away, and how it shapes one's spiritual journey and purpose.

Abstract

The author shares a deeply personal account of the transformative experience of encountering a twin flame, a connection that irrevocably alters one's perception of life and self. After the death of their twin flame, the author grapples with a sense of loss and an intense drive to fulfill a spiritual mission, feeling that any pursuit not aligned with elevating humanity is incongruent with their newfound perspective. The journey is described as a gift of awakening, despite the struggle and grief that accompany it. The author emphasizes the experience of unconditional, divine love that transcends the physical presence of the twin flame, and while they acknowledge the challenge of maintaining hope and productivity, they find solace in helping others and embracing their spiritual path, even on days when the desire to withdraw is strong.

Opinions

  • The author believes that the twin flame experience is a profound soul encounter that redefines one's life purpose and spirituality.
  • After the twin flame's death, the author feels that pursuits not aimed at uplifting humanity are morally wrong and meaningless.
  • The author views the intense grief and the push towards a spiritual mission as a "gift" and a necessary part of their growth.
  • They express that the love experienced with a twin flame is universal and divine, and it continues to influence them beyond the physical realm.
  • The author admits to struggling with the expectations of maintaining a spiritually awake and positive demeanor, especially when feeling overwhelmed by loss.
  • Despite the pain, the author has come to terms with being alone and finds fulfillment in their spiritual work and the connections made through their writing on the subject.
  • They acknowledge their own imperfections and the difficulty of living up to their spiritual ideals, while also encouraging others on a similar path that they are not alone in their struggles.

Twin Flames, Spirituality, and Life

Since My Twin Flame Died, I’m Just Doing the Best I Can

Everything now seems to be about the twin flame journey.

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For those of us who have known someone who we identify as a twin flame in our lives, we know that nothing will ever be the same. Surely, every person you meet changes you somehow, but a twin flame makes reality seem totally new. Your life purpose comes into clear focus and anything you’re doing that isn’t highly spiritual in nature feels messy, off-topic, and even wrong.

If your twin flame is dead, it becomes a struggle between lifelong grief and a pull to complete a life mission.

It feels dirty to pursue anything at all in this life that isn’t somehow elevating humanity in a big way. Any purely self-serving pursuits like romance, money, and pleasure seem morally abhorrent. The only things that seem to really matter are those that are bigger than yourself.

It’s a struggle, but it isn’t a bad thing. This is a gift. Waking up is always a gift.

The Experience of Twin Flames

Twin flames, to me, aren’t even about people anymore — it’s a name for a certain kind of soul experience. The person I identify as my twin flame died over a year ago, but the experience lingers on. The experience pervades all things for me.

And some days I can barely function. I wonder what the fuck happened to me. I can’t understand why I am having this experience when all the people surrounding me have no inkling of it and no interest in it. I have experienced the greatest, most earth-shattering love that a human can have, but it seems that most people aren’t interested in that kind of thing. They don’t believe it exists, so they don’t even seek it.

Twin flames are an experience of unconditional love.

Universal, Divine Love

This love I know came through a person to me, but its source is the universe. When he died, I realized that love is expansive, pure, and divine. It is everything. I just needed him to show it to me so that the first door was unlocked. Now I know how to unlock all the doors.

And yet, I miss him. And I feel like I’m losing my mind all the time.

Just Doing My Best, I Guess

I’m just doing my best as long as I am here on this planet. Things don’t make sense, memories are painful, and life goes on. Sometimes merely the fact that life goes on is hard. Sometimes it’s glorious.

I’m okay being alone now, though. I want to just do my best and try to help people, and if I don’t find a romantic partner in this journey, it’s okay. I have a lot of friends that are amazing — who, funnily enough, I’ve met because of my writing on this subject — and that is more than enough.

I can do this alone. I know that now.

Trying to Do What’s Right

Some days, it’s hard to ‘do the right thing’ spiritually. What I mean is this: some days I want to just lie down in bed until the day is over and watch time pass me by. Not being productive or helpful to anyone, just existing.

Some days I want to be a non-useful member of society. Some days I want to indulge in self-pity and sadness, just because. Sometimes I don’t want to work on my human relationships and I want to just stick my head in the sand.

Sometimes the energies of other people are too much for me to handle and I can’t offer them the assistance and compassion that I usually think I should be offering.

I let myself have days like that. I allow it. And it’s not really doing the right thing, because the right thing is to stay hopeful and positive and try to continue living my life in ecstatic joy of every moment I still have on Earth.

I’m Just Figuring It Out

Sorry, but it’s true. I am not perfect. Sometimes I slip, spiritually and morally. As much as the twin flame experience has woken me up to my purpose here, sometimes I don’t feel like doing it anymore.

But I am still here. And if I pursue my spiritual mission even half the time, I assume that’s better than what a lot of people on this planet are doing. And if you’re feeling the same way, you’re doing great, too. Keeping up the image of a spiritually awake human is no easy feat.

Hi, I’m Emily. I’m a twin flame coach among other things. For more about me, have a look at my website or book a session with me.

I am also the author of Twin Flames and the Love Story Within, available on Amazon. You may also be interested in the Twin Flame Support Group that I run.

The divine in me recognizes the divine in you.

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