silence of escape

Summary

The author uses their achievements to assert their existence and voice in the face of being told to calm down, grappling with the pain of narrating their own story of loss and the silence that followed.

Abstract

The text describes the author's emotional response to being told to calm down, which paradoxically leads them to amplify their voice through their accomplishments. They strive to be acknowledged and understood, to make their mark on the world by sharing its stories. However, the author finds it heart-wrenching to recount their own past, a world that has gradually disappeared, leaving them with a sense of peaceful solitude that is now challenged. The narrative touches on the struggle to articulate the loss of parts of their life and the resulting silence that once felt like an escape.

Opinions

The author believes in the power of their voice and the importance of their stories.
They feel that their accomplishments are a way to prove their existence and the value of their thoughts.
There is a deep emotional struggle in sharing personal stories of loss and change.
The author seems to experience a conflict between the peace found in silence and the need to break that silence to tell their story.
The text suggests a sense of resilience and determination, as the author acknowledges their spirit and the strength to tell their own narrative despite the heartache.

silence of escape

When they tell me to calm down I tend to become louder than I wish to be. Not by screaming or shouting, but by showing them my accomplishments to the world. To work and create more so they know I exist and they know what my mind is all about. They should never forget the spirit that I am. The voice I have to tell the stories of the world. I know that’s who I am. Then why is it so heartbreaking to tell a story of my own? To tell where I am from. The world I was living in. A world that vanished, little by little, until it was only me. I don’t want to form the words that explain the pieces that have gone missing so long ago. The pieces that broke me into the silence of escape that felt so peaceful until now.

~the power of Brigitte