Seed of Life
A Poem
I look in the mirror, Don’t recognize me, I have changed so much.
Empty eyes sans emotion, Dark pools lacking depth.
We all change, What I have become though, This is not what I wanted.
Once there was passion, Now there is only dejection.
It’s not something to like, Not what I sought, Yet here I am, Having paid life’s toll.
What was unbridled joy, Has turned into empty misery.
Having seen what time can do, Swore it was not for me, I would be different, I was, For a long time.
What could evoke laughter and light, Now brings forth tears and plight.
Then the inevitable. Life.
Once it brought forth loyalty, Now it causes loathing fealty.
The best-laid plans of, The best of men, Have been laid waste, What chance did I stand?
The more I gave, The more it wanted.
I had fought it to the best, I had given it all, But it always wanted more.
The more it took, The more it expected.
When I could give no more, I fought back.
But it had eons of learning, It did not give in, Not even an inch.
So it escalated, And I kept pace, But it was not a battle, I could ever win.
In the end, It took everything.
All that is left now, Is a shell.
The shell of a beautiful idea, The vessel of a sweet seed, That never germinated.
With the idea dead, The seed crushed, I look at the mirror, All I see is a ghost, Of the idea, Of me.
It is not, What I wanted to become, It is not, What I wanted to be, But it is.
I have changed, Into something, I don’t like.
So, I search again, Inside the shell, Inside me.
For a speck, That life missed, That is not crushed. Yet.
So, I dream again, To find a sliver of a seed. Maybe this one will live, Maybe this one will grow, Maybe this time, I will, Defeat life.
I wonder though, Is that dream, Is that seed, Is that life?
Am I defeating life, Or am I living it? I wonder.
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