Yellow Butterfly Series

Return to The Beginning of My Pain

Poetry

Just when I think: I’m not suffocating anymore I fall into tiny pieces And realize I’m back where I started I’ve returned to the beginning of my pain Back to when I found out that day And heard everything and nothing of what you had to say

I’m losing myself everyday But somehow, I stay the course, and find a way My dreams have faded My eyes are jaded I’ve become numb Because everything I’ve known is gone from when I was young

You bring the pain You make me feel insane You keep me going in this rain But once you’re gone, it’s just me and a voice I must overcome

I always think I’m fine until I’m not I wish these dark feelings would decompose like rot But instead they keep reminding me of everything that is not People still have expectations of me So, on the surface I’ll continue to act like I’m okay like a robot

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Hey, it’s me, Jade Willow. Thank you for reading my stuff — All of My Poetry+ My Eccentric Poetry Series