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Summary

The text describes a person's struggle with deep emotional pain and the eventual end of their suffering.

Abstract

The article titled "Repeatedly Drowning" delves into the depths of emotional turmoil, where the protagonist is trapped in a cycle of despair, symbolized by drowning in a "degradation pool." Despite her internal screams for respite, she faces the dismantling of her innocence and an overwhelming sense of blame. Distractions offer no solace, as they only reinforce her pain. The narrative reveals a missed opportunity to recognize her hidden strength and the desire to share her burden. Her memories, likened to an infection, intensify her critical condition. The text culminates in the protagonist's decisive act to end her heartache, leaving behind a legacy of unheard songs and unfulfilled expectations, while the author acknowledges the indelible impact of this loss.

Opinions

  • The author expresses regret over not recognizing the protagonist's distress sooner, indicating a deep sense of empathy and a wish to have alleviated her suffering.
  • There is a poignant reflection on the protagonist's camouflaged smile and the departure of her "inner survivor," suggesting a missed connection and the tragic consequences of unnoticed pain.
  • The text conveys a powerful emotional resonance, with the author grieving not only for the protagonist but also for those who will never experience her presence or creativity.
  • The author acknowledges that the heartache will never fully depart, emphasizing its lasting impact and the perpetual memory of the protagonist's struggle.

Repeatedly Drowning

The end of one’s heartache

Photo by Sharon McCutcheon on Unsplash

Repeatedly drowning in a degradation pool. Inside she is screaming, bidding for a momentary break from heartache.

Innocence dismantled, problems built with the blame. Searching for distractions but found only the same.

I wish I noticed her smile was camouflage. I wish I knew her inner survivor had departed.

I would have dehumanised in the burden with her. Ready to help prove any reason to not give in.

A memory like an infection. The more she recalled, her demeanour turned critical.

Stricken by disbelief. A screaming echo that broke the silence.

She put an end to her heartache.

I grieve for the one who will never hear her songs. I grieve for the one who will always be waiting for her.

I can never bid this heartache farewell. It would be straight regret. It will forever resonate.

Suicide
Abuse
Poetry
Poem
Mental Health
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