Summary

The author is embracing a new chapter in life, committing to self-acceptance and personal growth, while letting go of past burdens and negative attitudes.

Abstract

The website content reflects a deeply personal message from the author to themselves, marking a significant transition in their life. It is a day of reckoning where the author decides to shed the expectations and judgments of others to fully embrace their true identity. The author acknowledges a list of personal challenges and negative emotions they wish to release, including guilt, shame, the need for external validation, and resentment towards others. They aim to move forward with positivity, gratitude, and a newfound appreciation for life's experiences, seeking to cultivate unconditional love, happiness, and positive energy. The author expresses a desire to help others who feel lost or misunderstood, drawing on their own experiences to foster connections and encourage growth. The reflection concludes with an expression of thanks for the past and excitement for the future.

Opinions

The author feels a strong sense of finality in moving away from pleasing others and is ready to embrace authenticity.
There is a recognition of the harm caused by internalizing negative emotions and the impact of these emotions on personal memories and relationships.
The author wishes to let go of envy and the belief that material possessions are tied to personal passions, adopting a more accepting and open-handed approach to life.
They acknowledge past negativity and judgmental attitudes as obstacles to growth and are committed to overcoming these tendencies.
The author expresses regret for times they have hurt others due to their own insecurities and vows to change their interactions to be more positive and uplifting.
They are grateful for the lessons learned from past experiences and look forward to a future filled with love, happiness, and positive energy.
The author intends to use their insights to support and inspire others who are struggling with similar issues.

Realizations and Moving Forward

A message to myself

Today is a special day. It is a day I feel marks the end of a period of my life where I must be done doing what everyone else has always wanted me to do.

I am done acting the way that I think everyone enjoys. It is the day that I finally want to begin jumping into who I fully am without any hesitation. I want to take the leap into happiness because there is no more time to be unhappy.

Some things I want to acknowledge, let go of, and alter in my life moving forward:

The guilt, shame, and embarrassment I experience for simply being who I am.

Those memories that I rarely was able to cherish because they were plagued by shame. I wish to relieve my envy for others with similar memories that weren’t ruined by such feelings.

The need to alter myself and my personality to please everyone around me.

Holding back my ideas and thoughts because I am worried about judgment.

The resentment I hold against people who have done me wrong.

The resentment I hold against people who tried their best with me but fell short because of my own judgment and experiences whether they were true or untrue.

The greed I have for material things and the desire for those materials to directly coincide with the things I love, as those material things will come to me when and if they are supposed to in the way that they are supposed to.

The days, months, and years spent sulking in problems that I should’ve never let have such a tight grip on me.

The negativity that I have let myself become consumed by for so long. Negativity is the killer of growth and new beginnings.

The quick judgment I have made on others because of my preconceived ideas and impressions of them.

The ungratefulness I have felt when things could be so much worse.

The hatred I have felt for others without a reason.

Anytime I have ever made someone feel horrible because of my insecurities and emotions, especially when it was when they felt horrible, to begin with.

As the years go on I want to claim the positivity and goodness that the world has to offer. Some of these things I listed may have shaped the person I am today and are some things that the true friends and family and future friends and family around me love or will love. But, I desire to go on with different attitudes and want the experiences of unconditional love, happiness, and positive energy that I have always craved.

I want to change my attitude on life for the better and help those around me who feel lost, misunderstood, or unhappy in ways that connect with those deep wounds and experiences that they may have, but in a positive way.

Reshaping the past, living in the present, and being hopeful, grateful, and excited for the future is how I want to move forward.

I want to thank the world for giving me what I have and I am grateful and excited for what is to come.

2/22/22