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to tell others why someone is setting you on edge, it often sounds so trivial. As the words are coming out of your mouth, you find yourself thinking, “Wow, I probably sound super paranoid.”</p><p id="2b40">So, instead of going with your gut, you tell yourself the innocent explanation must be the correct one. You keep going along with it.</p><p id="2666">All those pink flags only start looking red once you’ve seen enough of them — <b>once you’ve noticed a clear pattern emerging.</b></p><p id="a47d">Depending on how experienced you are at dealing with people’s shit and how overt the asshole you’re dealing with is, it could take hours, days, months, or years before you piece it all together.</p><p id="619a">Recently, I had someone reach out to me who gave me kind of weird vibes. I felt like he was laying the groundwork for something (what exactly, I don’t know, but something).</p><p id="dc34">First, he reached out with some effusive praise on one of my articles. But he did it as a private message, not as a regular response.</p><p id="6e44">That made me a bit ill at ease. But I had a hard time really understanding why. I mean, private messages are a thing, and he didn’t say anything off color in it.</p><p id="a878">The private messages kept coming. I ignored them (can’t clap on private messages and I had nothing to say), but had the same odd feeling that I couldn’t fully explain.</p><p id="0ced">Eventually, he gave me some effusive praise and I thanked him. He responded within an hour asking if we could talk off Medium. Ostensibly, it was so we didn’t have to deal with the character limit (though there would have been none if he had just sent me regular responses).</p><p id="75b2">I decided to check out some of his stuff. The first thing that stood out was a very misogynistic article. And then I came across not one but two love letters he wrote to an unnamed Medium writer, each of them with a strong stalker vibe. (I don’t know if they were about me or not, but either way, they were creepy.)</p><p id="b8fb">When I told him I didn’t want to move my relationships with my readers off Medium, he made up an excuse and backpedaled. He claimed he was a professional sex coach and only wanted to offer me some advice about my clitoris.</p><p id="d078">Then, before the day was over, he went back to a post I wrote weeks before called <a href="https://readmedium.com/no-one-owes-you-a-chance-bef1a3ac4072">No One Owes You a Chance</a>. He left a lengthy response that implied that women who don’t give him a chance (e.g. me, just earlier) are bitter, angry, heartless bitches.</p><p id="9b52"><b>Yeah, his intentions were <i>totally </i>professional…</b></p><p id="fe6b">At that point, I cut communication with him before he could try to take things further. I blocked him. He deleted his response. And I hope that’ll be the last of it.</p><p id="0089">Now, given everything I know now — especially those super stalkery posts — it’s clear to me that the private messaging was a red flag. It’s also clear that asking to communicate off Medium is a bit of a red flag here. It’s quite likely he was laying the groundwork for something.</p><p id="a8c5" type="7">But up until that point, each of those individual actions seemed kind of innocent. Pink flags at best.</p><p id="682a">And that’s another way women “ignore” red flags — because each of them on their own doesn’t look that bad.</p><h1 id="3135">“Not All Men” Men Need to Sit the Fuck Down</h1><p id="f59f">There’s one more reason women ignore red flags. <b>We’re constantly being told we should.</b></p><p id="ec92">One big part of the problem is all the men who cry out “Not All Men” whenever women discuss the shit they deal with.</p><p id="c488">We have a lot of reasons for sharing our stories — it’s cathartic, it’s healing, and it helps us bond and understand each other.</p><p id="640e" type="7">It’s also a way of issuing warnings.</p><p id="2010">It’s because we share our bad experiences that we know about fuckboys and how to spot them. Or what to do if our boyfriend turns out to be a narcissist. Or that “Nice Guys” often have a total disregard

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for our sexual consent.</p><p id="02c9"><b>That shit’s fucking critical.</b></p><p id="4234">I didn’t have those kinds of conversations when I was younger and I didn’t have access to them online. So, I ended up in some risky situations, or got too close to guys who deep down did not give a shit about me, because I was figuring it all out on my own.</p><p id="8542">But now when we finally share our stories so that we can show each other (and clue some guys in) the red flags and pink flags we need to be mindful of, we keep hearing from men who are annoyed that we’re painting them with a broad brush.</p><p id="3147">Sometimes they don’t say “not all men.” Sometimes, they say that we should give guys a chance even if we feel weird. Sometimes, they say it’s not fair that they get treated like potential rapists just because they were being really forward because damnit they mean well.</p><p id="9486"><b>But in the end, what they’re doing is telling us not to trust our instincts. </b>They’re telling us that we need to give men the benefit of the doubt. They’re telling us to set aside our gut feelings because following them might mean we’re judging a decent guy too harshly.</p><p id="a9f5" type="7">And that’s one of the reasons women ignore red flags — because we’re constantly told we should, even when protecting men’s egos puts us at more serious risk.</p><p id="440e">I’m sure it sucks being treated with suspicion, but there’s a reason we have to be suspicious even if it has nothing to do with you personally. Those guards she’s putting up — the ones that make it trickier for you to interact with her — <b>they might be the only thing keeping her from being abused or having the worst night of her life.</b></p><p id="0515">So if you ever feel like a woman is unfairly treating you like a potential threat, understand that she has to put her safety first. <b>She deserves your empathy, not your contempt.</b></p><p id="cbb2"><a href="https://emmaaustin.substack.com/p/welcome-to-my-newsletter"><b><i>Let’s keep in touch! Sign up for my weekly newsletter</i></b></a><b><i> (I won’t send you anything without your enthusiastic consent!)</i></b></p><p id="0320"><b>❤ If you liked this post, you might also love:</b></p><div id="c7dc" class="link-block"> <a href="https://readmedium.com/the-real-reason-shes-not-being-honest-with-you-76ebab3ff50c"> <div> <div> <h2>The Real Reason She’s Not Being Honest With You</h2> <div><h3>She wants to be straightforward — it’s just not safe</h3></div> <div><p>medium.com</p></div> </div> <div> <div style="background-image: url(https://miro.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:320/1*5gk1jvdsTLP_qzsFVPr3tg.jpeg)"></div> </div> </div> </a> </div><div id="17a8" class="link-block"> <a href="https://readmedium.com/men-hitting-on-women-online-need-to-up-their-game-8c077ca48fc"> <div> <div> <h2>Men Hitting on Women Online Need to Up Their Game</h2> <div><h3>It’s not hard — here’s how to do it</h3></div> <div><p>medium.com</p></div> </div> <div> <div style="background-image: url(https://miro.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:320/1*M_wLC7GCweb2S5mI8TLexw.jpeg)"></div> </div> </div> </a> </div><div id="0e7a" class="link-block"> <a href="https://readmedium.com/signs-your-new-boyfriend-might-be-a-narcissist-e55b2e6d7e2b"> <div> <div> <h2>Signs Your New Boyfriend Might Be a Narcissist</h2> <div><h3>After years of narcissistic abuse, I’m on the lookout for red flags</h3></div> <div><p>medium.com</p></div> </div> <div> <div style="background-image: url(https://miro.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:320/1*xekbc_KPuOOC_xD8maW9Kw.jpeg)"></div> </div> </div> </a> </div></article></body>

Rasheed Hooda: Weirdo or Pied Piper?

It’s a small, small world.

Mr. Weirdo

I first met Rasheed Hooda about a dozen years ago in a local CiCi’s Pizza, where he was entertaining children and adults by making balloon animals — and, for my son, a balloon sword. We talked about fencing, a sport that my son wanted to try; balloons; and blogging. We exchanged URLs and Twitter handles, then quickly lost touch. A few years ago, Rasheed’s picture popped up on my friend Mitch Mitchell’s blog, in a post called, “Dream It And It Will Come.” Rasheed was living a dream, traveling the US — and there he was, with Mitch — in New York. Apparently, the two of them had been blogging buddies since before I ever ran into Rasheed, in Texas.

Rasheed Hooda and Mitch Mitchell

It’s a small world, after all.

Rasheed likes to introduce himself as, “Mr. Weirdo.” That’s branding; he’s not a weirdo. At least not the kind your mama warned you about. My own parents once gave me a keychain with a fob that said, “I like you, you’re weird!” I like people who dance to the beat of the imaginary drummer in their own heads.

I’ve come to think of Rasheed as The Pied Piper, enticing people out of their comfort zones, bit by tiny bit, until they look around and think, “Well, this place isn’t so bad, after all!”

When I joined Toastmasters — after first landing a paid speaking gig, then realizing, with dawning horror, that it meant I’d actually have to speak, in public — Rasheed showed up to support and encourage me during my first speech. Now I am VP of Public Relations for Cy-Fair Super Speakers, and Rasheed is an Area Director in District 56.

Rasheed Hooda and Holly Jahangiri (Toastmasters, Cy Fair Super Speakers, 2015)

Maybe it works both ways.

Life: It’s a Trip

Before reading Rasheed’s book, Life: It’s a Trip, I (reluctantly) read two of Rasheed’s children’s book manuscripts. Anyone who knows me well knows that my secret dream is to play Simon Cowell on Author Idol. I don’t see it as breaking hearts and minds; I see it as sparing aspiring authors a lifetime of angst and anguish. But it kills me to crush a friend. And you’ve seen my general thoughts on writers reviewing other writers’ books. I cannot tell you how relieved and delighted I was to be able to honestly say that his children’s books are good — the characters, the pacing, the storytelling skill all show great promise. I told him to stop doing what I do — stop stuffing the old manuscripts into a drawer or a box in the garage — and start polishing and submitting them to publishers.

In his Final Word on the first edition of Life: It’s a Trip, Rasheed wrote:

“…just to get Holly off my back, I went searching for my old writings and came up with a manila folder filled with hand written notes, typed essays and stories, and worksheets from the Creative Writing Class I had taken more than twenty years ago. In that folder I found a coffee­ stained sheet of paper, folded in half, with the heading “I have a Dream”. No, it is not the manuscript of the famous MLK speech. Instead, it reminded me of a vision I held more than twenty years ago. It reads…“I envision a book with my name on the front cover. It’s a bestseller. It’s filled with small essays and bits of poetry I have written over the years. It contains all the lessons I have learned over the ages — from zero to forty something. It’s beautiful. It’s funny. It’s full of wisdom. Wisdom I’ve acquired from others and wisdom I would like to share with others. It is my dream come true. It is the book you are holding in your hands. “Dreams do come true. But first, you must have a dream. So dream on and dream big.”

Just to get me off his back? What am I now, Rasheed Hooda, your Muse?

I can live with that.

So, this book of acquired wisdom Rasheed is offering is really a collection of personal anecdotes, experiences that have led Rasheed to where he is now, and reading it is a little like sitting across the table from the author over tea, getting friendly tips that might benefit you in your quest for a worry-free, satisfying, comfortable life. It’s definitely not your typical, slick, pop-psychology self-help book with multiple acronyms after the author’s name. It’s simply Rasheed, sharing with you what’s worked for him. There are some real insights in this book — and that’s refreshing.

He begins with my favorite quotation:

Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation) there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself then Providence moves too.

All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in ones favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance that no man could have dreamed would come his way. I have learned a deep respect for one of Goethe’s couplets:

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it.

W.H. Murray Scottish Himalayan Expedition

Each essay, a few of which he’s shared here on Medium, contains one or more insightful gold nuggets — what makes them gold is that they are drawn from experience, not just preached and expected to be taken as gospel.

Rasheed has been joyfully jobless and nomadic. Some tiny part of me would like to try that out; on the other hand, it’s not my dream, it’s not what I’m driven to do. But Rasheed and I have much in common, I think. Our attitude towards work is more similar than I’d imagined. I worked in corporate America most of my career, and I was happy there. I rarely felt like a “wage slave.” Maybe that’s because I’ve always felt it was as Rasheed described it — working for myself, to fulfill other dreams. It’s a choice.

As someone pointed out, when we introverts started feeling antsy over this pandemic, surprised that isolation was not the happy place we always envisioned it to be — the difference is “choice.” Solitude is a choice; isolation is not.

The Pied Piper

Rasheed continues to inspire by example. At the age of 62, he decided to walk Route 66. Rasheed writes:

Route 66 is a long-ass road. Actual length figures vary because there were many realignments over the years. According to the midpoint in Adrian, Texas, it is at least 2,278 miles long. I used the 2,400 miles as a guiding post. It would take 200 days if I walked 12 miles a day. That’s roughly seven months.

Almost 10 years younger, I’m still struggling to get my 10,000 steps in, each day.

Rasheed found me, here, on Medium. I was lurking, reading. Commenting. Gathering followers, God only knows why or how, since I wasn’t post — wait, comments on other people’s articles count as posts? Why? He gently nudged me to write. Tried to sell it as an “income stream.” Burned in another life on Themestream, RedPaper, and other sites more forgettable still, I sort of smiled and rolled my eyes at poor Rasheed. I am better than your average teen; he could feel me rolling my eyes, miles away, on the other side of the pixellated screen.

A few days, maybe a week went by. Rasheed dropped links to other Medium authors’ articles. “I don’t want to know how to make money on Medium, and I’m damned sure not going to start writing articles on how to make money on Medium, just because those are guaranteed to be read and make money on Medium!” I don’t think I actually said, Leave me the Hell alone — I like Rasheed, even when I’m in a surly mood.

He pointed out that I could “repurpose” old blog posts, here, with impunity. I pointed out that if I felt like tackling that kind of editing job, I’d repost them on my own latest blog. I had plans. I was going to write fiction. Fresh material. And then looked at my blog, remembering it really only has 18 subscribers. And then the pandemic hit, and I didn’t feel like writing apocalyptic YA fiction — I was living it. And it was deadly dull. I opened up Medium in a fit of pandemic passivity. I posted some things. I earned about $0.96 cents in three months.

Rasheed offered pointers, like how to turn a line into a “Kicker.” I started following more of the breadcrumbs he left out. I engaged with a few of the other writers he knew. Nice people.

I even posted a story that was “double-curated”

but I was still new to Medium and really had no idea what that meant. I assumed it was a good thing. Rasheed was proud of me, anyway.

And then he recommended me to Illumination. I cannot hold up my resistance, not now that he’s joined forces with Dr Mehmet Yildiz.

As I see new writers pop up in this new powerhouse of a publication, I can’t help but smile at some of the names I recognize, and some I’m just getting to know. He and I are both more comfortable, I think, promoting others than we are at engaging in “shameless self-promotion,” but when you promote the right people, they tend to return the favor or pay it forward in ways that can’t fail to make you feel it was all worthwhile. If you ask me, Mr. Weirdo is definitely the Pied Piper, and his gentle nudges to join the dance are hard to resist.

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