Rambling and rant alert!
Warning: A bunch of rambling about the things guys do and say.

Recently, I was in a long-distance relationship, I did not initially intend for it to happen but as we both agreed to try and make it work, I thought yeah why not.
I’m someone who finds it very hard to trust people, so it takes a long time and perseverance to finally trust someone. Yes, I have trust issues. Don’t we all to some extend?
We were together for at least 8 months before it turned into an LDR. It was a real struggle from the very beginning of the relationship. Actually the whole relationship from start to finish. So I guess I deserve it to end the way it did because I had seen it coming but continued to force it and try to work it out even though it had already died.
At the beginning of LDR we spoke every day, particularly because he was in quarantine and because he was bored, we called off the whole relationship a few times. Yet again, we continued to try.
Long story short, it didn’t work.
Lesson learnt: Don’t force anything. If it’s a struggle and you have tried more than you wanted to. Stop and walk away.
What killed me the most wasn’t the break-up but the things he said and how he did not consider my feelings. This was after he had said he wanted to be with me and he didn’t want to hurt me.
In the end, he hurt me anyways with his words like always.
So what hurt me so bad? Well, the constant brings up the topic of how many girls he could be sleeping with and how hard it is to not sleep with someone. How he doesn’t deserve to be treated like how I’m treating. Apparently, if a girl wants her boyfriend’s attention and affection is mistreatment.
Now, you’re probably thinking. Wait a minute, but you said he wanted to be with you and he doesn’t want to hurt you. But now he’s telling you he could be sleeping with all these girls who are apparently throwing themselves at him. But why should he be interested in sleeping with other girls if he wants to be with you? I don’t know you tell me. I would love to know the answer as to know guy’s mind works because it certainly is a myth to me.
Yes, that was what hurt me the most. The fact I spent months building this trust and he breaks it over and over again, which somehow makes me the bad guy.
So guys and girls, don’t say you want to be with someone and disrespect them this way because karma will smack you round the face real hard. It is also classed as abuse and manipulation. So CUT IT OUT!
