Overthinking, insomniac…

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to be washed, clothes in the dryer need folded, carpets need cleaned, animals fed and watered… I can not remember if I have to work tomorrow, so there is another task to add to my ever growing list. To make all this worse, I suffer from anxiety and depression. So I get anxious over the tasks I need to complete, but my depression makes me not want to complete them. This is my cycle of life.I envy the people who are able to sleep at the drop of a dime. This used to be me. I was a heavy sleeper. I was able to sleep through a rock concert, I fell asleep in an IMAX movie (Star Trek), but now, two children later, I feel like if an ant farts two blocks away, it wakes me up on the off-chance that I am asleep. I have gone 36 hours without being able to sleep, and that’s even after tak

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ing doctor prescribed medication one night, and melatonin the next.I don’t understand my body, how exactly does it work that I can take melatonin one night and fall asleep (not stay asleep), but if I take it another night I am up all night, like right now. My conclusion, I am anxious. I am counting down the hours until my next task, and I am scared I won’t wake in time.. I have tried meditation, medication, teas, warm baths, music… nothing.If anyone has any advice, I would be willing to listen. I want to sleep like a normal being again, my next option is a sleep study which honestly I am kind of scared to do, but if it can help me figure out what is going on, I should suck it up and do it!Have a good night, and sleep well.</article></body>

Overthinking, insomniac…

So, as I lay here in bed at almost 3 in the morning, all I can do is think about all the tasks I have to complete in the morning… I have 4 hours until I have to start getting my oldest child ready for school, and then what I will pack in his lunch… are the clothes I set out for him appropriate for the weather? To answer that question, of course not, I live in southern Indiana where the weather reaches all four seasons in a matter of hours… Once I have him taken care of them I come home and chase the toddler around the house cleaning his messes, I have dishes that need to be washed, clothes in the dryer need folded, carpets need cleaned, animals fed and watered… I can not remember if I have to work tomorrow, so there is another task to add to my ever growing list. To make all this worse, I suffer from anxiety and depression. So I get anxious over the tasks I need to complete, but my depression makes me not want to complete them. This is my cycle of life.

I envy the people who are able to sleep at the drop of a dime. This used to be me. I was a heavy sleeper. I was able to sleep through a rock concert, I fell asleep in an IMAX movie (Star Trek), but now, two children later, I feel like if an ant farts two blocks away, it wakes me up on the off-chance that I am asleep. I have gone 36 hours without being able to sleep, and that’s even after taking doctor prescribed medication one night, and melatonin the next.

I don’t understand my body, how exactly does it work that I can take melatonin one night and fall asleep (not stay asleep), but if I take it another night I am up all night, like right now. My conclusion, I am anxious. I am counting down the hours until my next task, and I am scared I won’t wake in time.. I have tried meditation, medication, teas, warm baths, music… nothing.

If anyone has any advice, I would be willing to listen. I want to sleep like a normal being again, my next option is a sleep study which honestly I am kind of scared to do, but if it can help me figure out what is going on, I should suck it up and do it!

Have a good night, and sleep well.