Summary

A mother recounts a profound near-death experience during childbirth, which leads to a transformative journey towards inner peace and self-love.

Abstract

The narrative describes a harrowing childbirth experience where the author faces the brink of death due to hemorrhaging. In the midst of chaos, she encounters a transcendental moment, feeling an overwhelming sense of peace and love. This event serves as a catalyst for deep introspection, prompting her to embrace self-love and the impermanence of life. The author reflects on the importance of inner peace, not only for personal healing but also as a source of strength and hope for others. The essay concludes with the author expressing gratitude for the experience, which has reshaped her perspective on life and the afterlife.

Opinions

The author believes in the existence of signs from the universe and the afterlife, as evidenced by her spiritual experience during childbirth.
There is an emphasis on the transformative power of love, particularly self-love, in overcoming loss and personal challenges.
The narrative suggests that moments of crisis can offer valuable lessons and opportunities for personal growth.
The author conveys that inner peace is essential for navigating life's obstacles and can be a source of comfort for those facing adversity.
The experience has led the author to understand that the greatest gift one can offer is peace, which can be shared with others through compassion and empathy.

A Birth, A Baby and A Near Death Experience In The Maternity Ward

Have you seen signs from the Universe or the afterlife?

Pivotal is the minute caught between life and death. Without warning, my ending intersects with my child’s beginning in the maternity ward.

A sixty-second countdown is all I am given before life bleeds out.

One minute can change everything.

departure

A radical shift in my awareness heightens as death circles the birthing room amidst newborn cries. All my six senses are hyperaware.

My struggle to breathe answers why — I am dying.

In the panic of uncharted terrain, mind and body bow their heads, a sign of respect for the Spirit. End-of-life care instructions stir motherly instincts. I pass my child, bonding with me, into the hands of the Father, connect our cherished circle of three.

A disoriented expression alerts the obstetrician. He follows my gaze, tracking a bloody trail — streaming to the edge, a downward gush. Red taints his blue scrubs, stains the grey-tiled floor, and puddles at his dark-splattered shoes.

I am hemorrhaging.

The blood pressure drop spins my view into a blur. Northern Lights emerge, calm my being. These vibrant streaks mesmerize my heart and soul, a dance of pink, white, purple, and green.

My soul commits to an inescapable impulse and follows the transcendental dancing lights.

The life-saving order, Flood her, fades into a light-headed ringing.

IV fluids injected at my tipping point intertwine divine flow, flooding my veins.

A calm descends to silence the ambient sounds of earth.

Darkness gives to light.

between life and death

There is no hesitation in answering the call to return home. Every part of me recognizes this is where I belong, what is and will forever be.

Unafraid, I surrender in a magnificent free-fall to the centre of being, towards the purest of loving energy. Arrive home.

My soul tastes absolute, perfect peace.

homeschooling

Higher wisdom enlightens me. Explains the magnetic pull is pure love, my North Star guiding me home.

Here, love creates a safe space.

Tends to my grieving — holds space for my spiritual experience of human loss, sadness, anger, fear, and every misunderstanding, all without judgment.

Consoles my grieving, acknowledges the pain of being left behind by loved ones who abandoned me—when I begged them not to leave. Departed before I was ready to let them go.

Unburdening allows in the light. Warmth embraces, soothes.

teachable moments

A teachable moment asks, Do you love yourself?

It was never because they did not love you enough to stay.

Every loss challenges you to embrace your true self—it is a lesson to love yourself more. Love is always the answer, your reason why in every situation.

This is a soul lesson to master when you return.

Ask for help, look for signs. Know we fully support you in all efforts taken to align with your purpose.

awakening

There is a bewildering blur of commotion, shadows, harsh lights. My confusion meets relentless waves of nausea washing over me.

Everything hurts.

Be still, Dear. You lost 1–1/2 litres of blood.

The nurse gently lowers my head to the pillow. Reassures my child is safe, sound, lying next to me. It is time to rest.

Recovery is slow. Amnesia protects my soul reborn.

the gift of peace

Inner peace calms our mind allows us to see our path much clearer… you know where you want to go, and commit to the road, trusting that all obstacles are worthy challenges rather than intimidating threats.

One minute alters the trajectory of my life — a near-death experience is a sign from the universe that I long for inner peace. By taking a leap of faith, choice offers me the gift of peace, opens my heart and mind. It ignites a new journey to restore, hold, and cultivate inner peace.

Peace within ourselves ripples outward to everyone we touch.

The gift of peace given to me is the peace I give to others. Peace instills hope in those facing end-of-life events. It fosters courage needed for emotional storms, strength during difficult times when suffering, uncertainty, and deep sadness upends one’s life.

The greatest gift we can offer one another is our gift of peace. Through the lens of love, it promises peace lies within reach.

What would you do if you had one minute left?

Thank You, Ellie Jacobson, for your Flint + Steel prompt, “Have you seen signs from the universe or the afterlife?”