Summary

The author reflects on their transformative experience volunteering in animal rescue, confronting personal trauma, and the challenges of reevaluating deep-seated beliefs about inherent goodness and trust.

Abstract

The author shares a personal journey of growth and healing through volunteering in animal rescue, which has led to a profound shift in their beliefs and emotional patterns. They recount the impact of witnessing animal cruelty, which reignited a childhood trauma and a compulsion to save all animals. The process of dismantling limiting beliefs has been arduous, involving the rewiring of their subconscious mind and the realization that not all beings are inherently good or deserving of unconditional investment. Despite the emotional toll, the author finds satisfaction in the connections formed with animals and like-minded individuals. They recount specific stories of rescuing and rehabilitating kittens, which have brought both heartache and joy. The author also expresses gratitude towards those who have supported their work and invites readers to connect further.

Opinions

The author believes that their volunteer work has triggered a deep-seated need to rescue animals, stemming from a childhood incident.
They express that not all beings are inherently good and that investment in others should be reciprocal.
The author suggests that trust in relationships is a shared responsibility and requires a built-up reserve.
They hold the opinion that working through the fifth layer of their rescuer pattern, related to animals, has been particularly challenging.
The author values the emotional connections made with rescued animals and appreciates the support from genuinely kind individuals.
They feel that the process of reevaluating their beliefs and patterns has been more challenging than rewiring their subconscious mind.
The author is critical of their neighbor, who they describe as a "monster in a human shape," due to the neighbor's lack of empathy and fur allergy.
They express gratitude towards readers, the "Know Thyself, Heal Thyself" publication, and its conductor for supporting their work.

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October Was My Second Opportunity To Serve Animals and I Am Grateful for the Triggered Pain

Volunteering in a shelter wasn’t enough to activate my savior pattern. I needed to be a witness to the streets' horrors!

The last few weeks were too harsh. In addition to life standard chores, I spontaneously volunteered in some animal rescue missions. I’ve been a witness to so much cruelty; a nonchalance in the best-case scenario.

It was enough to trigger the fifth layer of my rescuer pattern I would have never expected. The limiting belief goes like this, “I couldn’t save that innocent puppy when I was a kid; I need to save all animals. I owe it to them!”

You may find the details about the incident that created the belief in the first place here, should it feel worthwhile.

Appealingly, what is mind-blowing, to me, is that yielding my rescuer pattern, in general, has been more demanding than rewiring the major part of my subconscious program. The resistance has been fierce, to say the least.

I destroyed four belief levels and my innocence with them. I, respectively, replaced them by:

Not all mortal beings are inherently good.

Toxic inherently good people don’t deserve my investment.

Even non-toxic inherently good people wouldn’t earn a chance unless they kept some room in their heart for a minimum of reciprocity.

Trust is a shared responsibility in relationships. Fantasizing about the potential does not make it a reality. If one mistake destroys trust, then there has never been any built reserve in the first place. Investing and being consistent with your deposits doesn’t guarantee that the other person pays attention and considers it.

Working on the fifth layer related to animals was no exception in terms of how challenging it has been — probably more!

There were days I couldn’t focus on anything, resulting in delaying some tasks/priorities. I was overwhelmed with sadness, and my tears flowed uncontrollably like a river.

I feel this last discovered layer — hopefully — will turn out to be the most difficult one for two main reasons:

Like the previous four ones, it is intrinsically good and noble,
Animals are way more fragile than humans and can’t be accountable even if they want to!

Nonetheless, apart from my required inner work, I am very satisfied with the magical and priceless connections I have been building either with my rescues, the street animals I’ve been feeding, or the genuinely kind people I’ve had the privilege to meet!

My first rescue kitten was in a miserable state when I found her. She was blind because of acute conjunctivitis and had to spend almost two weeks in the vet clinic. Eventually, we could save only one eye.

I felt devastated when the vet informed me he needed my approval to proceed with surgery. He smiled compassionately before adding, “she is grateful to you for one eye. You did your very best!”

I called her Gem and she was instantly adopted by a wondrous girl. When she sent me a video after a few days of recovery in which she was gently playing with her, I couldn’t help but have the most emotional reaction:

Enthusiastic loving words accompanied by tons of tears and much inner peace and satisfaction!

The second and third are kitty brothers. For a quick story, I was in their neighborhood because I decided to rescue a kitten who spent four days stuck at the top of an electricity pole.

The babies were so sick they had to take five medicines for almost two weeks. Then we found another problem that required a three-week treatment.

Now, they are starting to be playful and silly which is mesmerizing beyond words! They also purr all the time, and that’s soul-soothing! They still need a home.

Moustache and Zoro: courtesy of the author

The last rescue was almost an adult cat aged between 10 months and a year. He, fortunately, found a loving parent last week!

It has been a struggle specifically for this one given that I had to leave him in front of my small apartment door in a warmed basin while my heart was breaking.

What made the situation even worse is that I have a neighbor whom I can only call a monster in a human shape.

I was constantly checking in on him and rarely leaving my place because I could expect anything coming from such a person.

Appealingly, my neighbor who is next to me suffers from a fur allergy and needs to periodically take medication. Still, she never told me about it until I noticed it and asked the question explicitly.

Her answer spoke volumes about who she is, “indeed, I developed it a few years ago and that’s why I didn’t adopt him! I wouldn’t hesitate a second otherwise!”

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Gratitude

As usual, I want to thank all of you, dear readers, who decided to stop by and give this piece some of your precious time!

Also, my gratitude goes to the “Know Thyself, Heal Thyself” publication for giving my words a platform, its wonderful conductor Diana C. and my soul friends from the publication’s tribe.