Now I’m going to tell you how scared I was

Summary

The author expresses their initial fear of forming a deep connection with someone they knew would become incredibly important to them, and how those fears were eventually overcome through the courage found in the relationship.

Abstract

The article delves into the author's emotional journey, beginning with the trepidation they felt upon meeting someone who would come to significantly influence their life. The author admits to being scared of the potential loss, the risks involved in opening up, and the profound impact this person had on their daily experiences. Despite these fears, the author found strength and courage in the relationship, leading to a moment of clarity where the fear dissipated while gazing into the other person's eyes. The narrative concludes with an invitation to the reader to support the author and other writers by subscribing to Medium, and a suggestion to explore more of the author's stories.

Opinions

The author believes that the fear of losing someone important is a natural response to deep connection.
They express a willingness to take risks and step out of their comfort zone for the sake of this relationship.
The author suggests that beautiful things, such as their relationship, can be frightening due to the possibility of their end.
They convey a sense of vulnerability, as the person they're addressing has become a significant part of their life.
The author's perspective shifts from fear to courage, indicating personal growth and the transformative power of the relationship.
They imply that reader support, through subscriptions like Medium's, is valuable for writers and their continued work.

Now I’m going to tell you how scared I was

I was scared when I met you because I knew you would be one of those people I would always be afraid to lose.

I was afraid when I realized that with you I am ready to take risks, to reinvent myself, and to put all my certainties into play, because I realized that I would have taken a risk, one day, to remain in clenched fists, squeezing only in the void.

I was scared when I started to notice that you were in all the things I did, I said, I saw, I listened, because I thought that one day, if you left, I wouldn’t he had something to say, to see, to listen. I was scared when I first told you "come here, stay close to me" because I was afraid to see you leave.

I was scared many other times, because beautiful things are scary, because you are afraid of their end, but I have stopped being afraid. The courage we will go on. Now I will tell you about when I was afraid and how, looking into your eyes, I stopped doing this.

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Now I’m going to tell you how scared I was

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