Nothing Has Changed
A poem about non-existent progress

When will this vicious cycle end?
I feel like the hands of a clock, doomed to forever spin in circles around you, but never holding your hand or close enough to validate what we are.
I thought we would have figured out where we stand by now, but I guess not.
I don’t even know what to say one more, because I’ve run out of words to explain us long ago.
You’re a spider who’s caught me in your web time and time again, but you only keep me in your trap long enough to make me question before letting me go.
I still want to be with you, but I don’t know how to communicate.
When you talk to me, it must feel like talking to a dull painting, with no connection or spark to ignite.
I try.
I try to break open the glass of the clock that’s restricted us for so long, but I’m not strong enough to do that on my own.
I need your help so we can break open the glass together and start a new expedition, but I can’t reach you.
How am I supposed to be with you?
Even if it’s not what I want to hear, I just want to know how you are feeling, how you feel about the prospect of us as one.
Sadly, that’s not possible, and I’m stuck in limbo, spreading myself thin and closing up against my other loved ones.
I need an answer-the clock is ticking, and it won’t tick forever.
I can give you all the time in the world, give you the world, but I just want to know.
What is your future? Am I a part of it? Or am I a distant shadow fading as you glow for another lover?
Please, just stop me from spinning for eternity.
Please.






