No Views But I Won’t Give Up

A total newbie, with little to no views or claps, but I won’t give up

Maybe I am digging my own grave here, or maybe I am writing this to force myself to keep going. Either way I truly feel that freelance writing will work out for me. I am very new to this game, only a week into it. And I know I still have heaps to learn. Right now, it is mildly frustrating because I am getting hardly any views or claps or followers, and I don’t know what I expected being so new. But there is no way I am giving up on writing.

Here is why I won’t give up

I need this

I don’t mean I need this financially. I have a good job, it pays well, has good benefits and is very secure. But it is not what I want to be doing. Truth be told, I really have no idea what I want to be doing but writing in general makes me feel good. I need this to work out, I need this to turn into something monetary that I can rely on each month. Who knows, maybe someday I can work part time and write full time. Only time will tell. But because I need this so bad, I won’t give up.

I like this

Writing anything, anywhere, anytime, makes me feel better about myself. It makes me feel like I have a voice and I am getting it out in the world. I have an anxiety disorder that I am managing, and part of my management is finding an outlet for energy, negative and positive. Writing is one of my outlets. Giving up now would just mean I am going to live with regret, and my anxious mind won’t let that be a possibility. I am glad I found Medium, or perhaps it found me. I won’t give up.

I want this

I know earlier I said I don’t really know what I want, but I have a deep seeded feeling that writing may be it. I want to make this work and turn writing into a full-time gig. I have so many ideas, and writing does not feel like a job, it is enjoyable. Don’t they always say, “find something you love to do, and you will never work another day in your life”? I know it’s B.S., I have even written an article about how finding your passion is not worth it, but who cares, this is worth chasing for me. So far, I have only accumulated .01 in earnings on Medium which is a little embarrassing, but technically that makes me a paid writer. Now, I just need to learn how to turn that .01 into $1000+ per month. I won’t give up.

I think I might be good at this?

There is no way to tell for sure, but I think I might be good at writing. Most writers toil in obscurity and uncertainty, even best-selling authors have expressed this feeling, but I feel like I have a unique talent and a special tone to my voice that the world needs to hear. I know that this sounds conceited, but for as long as I can remember, I could bang out essays, book reports, correspondence for work, with little to no effort, it just flows out. I feel like writing is in my bag of tricks. Who knows, I may be completely awful. Mostly because I feel like I have some talent writing, I won’t give up.

I know time and patience will pay off

There are tons of articles on Medium about how to succeed and make a living as a writer. This gives me hope. I know that with time, effort and patience, this endeavor can and will pay off. The more I read, the more I learn, the closer I will get to my goal. I know it won’t happen overnight but really, what do I have to lose. Write a bunch of articles, learn the freelancing trade and see what comes of it, why not? I won’t give up.

All in all, you know by now, that I won’t give up. Even if I spend endless hours writing, promoting, learning and giving this my all and nothing happens, at least I tried, and I didn’t give in. No views, no claps, no responses, no earnings, no curations, right now it does not matter, I know eventually it will turn around and I will find the magic behind freelancing for a living.

I hope to be able to follow this article up someday with a positive update, until then, I won’t give up.