New Year’s Resolution Failure
I feel like a pussy
I’m depressed.
New year's resolutions take courage and commitment. When I break a word to myself, I feel like a pussy, fake person. Real people do what they say and say what they mean. Because they understand that if they don’t stand for something they’ll fall for anything.
They feel the fear and act anyway, they feel their weakness but don’t give in to it. That’s courage. They fall on their knees for that drink, smoke or bag of chips but swap it out for broccoli and say no to those addictions and bad habits.
Well, what the fuck is wrong with me that I can’t get my shit together. To have a goal, see it, feel it and most importantly, do it even when it gets tough. I’m depressed because I feel like a failure. Everything I said I’d do this year, I didn’t do.
It didn’t help that I passed out with the television on. The TV show “kitchen nightmares” woke me up at 12:16 am. I ended up watching failed restaurants resurrected by chef Ramsey and it depressed me but gave me hope. I turned the TV off asking myself “ what the fuck am doing?…I got to get the kids on the bus at 7:30 am”. Thank God, I’m not working tomorrow.
Instead, I’m writing this at 1:28 am to feel better, finish my nightcap I didn’t drink last night, and go to bed.
New Year’s Resolution Failure
It’s 4 days into the new year and I’m failing horribly. Can you relate?
- Exercise?- nope
- Stop smoking? -lasted 24 hours
- Stop ruminating on 2021 regrets?- worry, worry, worry, complain, complain even worse when I needed a nicotine fix
- Stop Procrastination?- My kids were late for the bus even though I did everything 2 hours before…I had to drive them to get them to school on time. I ended up chasing the school bus to the next bus stop. I was pissed at myself and the kids.
Bitter Sweet
However, I discovered that I helped 2 other kids who were flagging me down to stop the bus. They would have missed the school bus too if I didn't flag down the bus to stop for my children. So at least it made me feel better knowing that I helped other kids through my procrastination.
- Change my perspective when things upset me?- Ok, I can get back on the horse and start over now. It’s time to create magic Hocus, Pocus, Focus. Abraham Hicks said:
No one tells a baby when they’re trying to walk “get up you little dummy”
- Drink on the weekends?- I’ll get there, It’s Tuesday morning at 2 am and I’m raising a glass to your New Year’s resolution success AND mine.
Cheers!
[Edited] Suggested reading and an answer to this Story by Casey Lawrence
I was laughing and highlighting a lot reading that. Here are a lot of my highlights and quotes by Casey Lawerance:
- This year, I suggest giving yourself permission to fail. No guilt, no pressure, no expectations
- Do more of the things that make you happy and less of the things that stress you out.
- You can’t buy a house by eating fewer avocados (sorry Boomers). But what you can do is enjoy the heck out of that avocado.
- If you can’t quit (smoking), try cutting back. Adjust your expectations: going from a pack per day to half a pack is so many fewer cigarettes overall.
- maybe organize a Zoom call or a “watch party” (simultaneously watching a movie online, from separate locations).
- Resolutions shouldn’t be an all-or-nothing deal, but we so frequently consider them to be.
- In 2022: I challenge you to be kinder to yourself. You’ve been through a lot.
Thank you Casey
I have a friend that is a math professor, world-renowned mathematician, accomplished guitarist, author of 5 published books and a black belt karate teacher.
When I asked him how he managed to accomplish so much in his life he said he has a healthy fear. He’s aware of the good and evil angel on his shoulder and he knows if he feeds the wrong one he’ll be a loser. That healthy fear drove him to be a winner.
The angel that says don’t wake up and do this thing, is easier to feed. He knew at a young age that
having a healthy fear is a good thing; if he didn’t develop certain habits he wouldn’t accomplish a damn thing.
Habits
I was waiting in line at the grocery store thinking about this article and what my friend said. I came across a magazine about habits while waiting in line and I read some good points:
- Stop shaming and criticizing yourself for breaking a habit. When you do that your brain associates your new habit with pain which makes you subconsciously avoid it entirely.
- Beware of making declarations to others of your new habit until you get in the groove of the new habit. You don’t want people to shoot you down before you begin to create traction.
- Do new habits around an event like new year’s eve, big birthdays or moving to a new place etc. or start at the beginning of a new week.
- Change environment associated with bad habits
- Start small and Be on consistent for 66 days .
- Do as many new habits as possible
- Habits make your life easier after 66 days because,
- happiness is not about a thing like a big house or new car, it’s about the behavior you develop that makes you feel good about yourself. ( Exercise will make you feel happier :)
- Finally, fostering the behavior of gratitude of writing down 3–5 things you’re grateful for before bed or when you wake up will create happiness.
Appreciation is true wealth
I feel happier now, thank you for reading this.
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“..weeping may last for the night, but a shout of joy comes in the morning.” — Psalm 30:5