New Year and Grief

Oh, 2023 has been hard and painful.

We’re having a New Year’s Eve dinner with my family tonight and there’s an empty chair, which makes things difficult. Knowing it’s a new year seems surreal without those who we started 2023 with.

The main takeaway from this year is that grief doesn’t go away.

It’s always raw.

Whether I’m on my way to work or out with friends, I find myself overcome by a sudden sadness. It doesn’t seem to get any easier.

I wish I had enjoyed the time I spent with her more, helped her with appointments, and could have somehow cured her illness.

I doubt I’ll ever entirely recover from this.

Grief just shows how much you care about someone.

I’ll never forget her and I can’t wait to tell my future children about her.

Yes, I’m crying as I type this.

2024 isn’t looking good, especially because my grandad is seriously ill in another country.

I pray and hope he gets better soon.

I only wish I could help everyone.

With my final post of the year, I simply want to say my gratitude to all of you. It’s been a huge help in dealing with my emotions.

I’m sending you all love & blessings and I truly hope that 2024 gives you joy.

With love,

Sumaya

:)