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The website content is a personal reflection on unrequited love and the struggle to feel worthy of someone's affection, expressed through a series of introspective journal entries and poetry.

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The author, CyCy, shares a deeply personal piece from their "Dream Journal Series" titled "Never Be Worthy Of You," which delves into the complexities of a one-sided love. The narrative reveals a cycle of emotional highs and lows, where the protagonist's self-promised resolve to protect their heart is consistently broken down by the object of their affection's intermittent warmth and validation. Despite years of loyalty and the pain of unrequited love, there's a reluctance to let go, even in the face of the other's indecision. The piece is a raw expression of vulnerability, questioning self-worth and the measures one takes to feel deserving of love. CyCy acknowledges the brain's role in this emotional turmoil, thanking their readers for their support and hinting at more content in the series, while also promoting their other works and services.

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  • The author feels that their love and devotion are not reciprocated or acknowledged to the extent they desire.
  • There is a sense of self-doubt and internal conflict about the value and worth the protagonist brings to the relationship.
  • The protagonist is caught in a cycle of hope and disappointment, longing for a deeper connection and recognition from the other person.
  • Despite the emotional toll, there is a deep-seated attachment and an inability to move on from the relationship.
  • The author suggests that the other person lacks the courage to end the relationship, contributing to the protagonist's emotional entanglement.
  • CyCy expresses gratitude to their readers and acknowledges the therapeutic nature of writing, despite the emotional cost.
  • The author hints at a creative process influenced by sleeplessness and a passion for various forms of art, including anime and music.
  • CyCy offers a range of content and services, indicating a diverse creative portfolio and an interest in engaging with a broader audience.

Never Be Worthy Of You

Dream Journal Series — Soul Exchange

Never be Worthy of You

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I often forget

How I promised myself,

Sometime ago,

To steel my heart when it comes to you.

Your love is unpredictable.

And you base my worth

On a scale

That only you can measure.

But my walls always come crashing down,

Whenever you speak softly to me.

I often wish it was always like this.

How you hold me next to you

And make me feel like I am worthy of you.

Love is blind they say.

Only a fool would love like this.

Maybe they’re right.

I know they’re right.

But just one night,

I want to be the love of your life.

I spent years next to you.

Gave my loyalty to only you.

Yet, after all these years I spent my youth with you,

I never feel like I’m worthy of you.

You speak of wanting a change,

And yet,

You never had the courage to

Let me go.

I don’t want you to.

But maybe, you should

If you want me no more.

Because I wouldn’t have the heart to see you walk out the door.

I often forget to steel my heart when it comes to you.

Of all the chances I’ve had,

Why do I keep coming back for more?

Why do I feel like I will never be worthy of you?

How much more would it take to be worthy of you?

Hi, I’m CyCy!

Thank you for reading. I truly appreciate it!

This lullaby haunted me last night and instead of sleeping after writing To The Fairest Queen I Know, I ended up writing this and crying all night.

Thanks, brain.

Also, do not worry about me. This is not my life. My brain just likes to cook and keep me up all night. LOL

But if you like pain, heartbreak, and unrequited love, definitely check out To The Fairest Queen I Know. I have a feeling that my brain would turn this into a series as well (as if I already don’t have a million series to write at the same time 🫠)

Anyway, thank you for your support and I hope you will keep coming back for more.

Shout out to one of my faves, Phoebus Apollo 🖤

Thanks for singing these poems, guiding me with composing music, and showing me different types of art.

A true bestie here. xo

Also, can you please let me sleep? Thanks. ILY

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