My Never-Ending Creative Joy

Summary

The author discovers their own creative joy through writing and knitting, inspired by their mother's creativity, despite initial self-doubt and the challenge of learning new skills.

Abstract

The author recounts their journey to finding creative joy, a trait they admired in their mother, who was adept at crafting various items. Initially, the author felt a lack of this creative spark and questioned why it seemed to elude them. However, through perseverance and the decision to actively nourish their creativity, particularly by improving their writing, they found happiness and fulfillment. The author also takes pleasure in the meditative process of knitting, embracing the act of undoing their work and starting anew as a form of creative expression and relaxation. This process has led to an appreciation for the creative journey and the time spent improving their craft, which they believe would make their mother proud.

Opinions

The author initially doubted their own creative abilities, comparing themselves to their mother.
They believe that creativity can be cultivated and improved through deliberate action, such as practicing writing.
Reading articles by great authors fills the author with love and inspires their own writing.
The author enjoys the process of knitting, despite not being an expert, finding it to be a source of joy and relaxation.
There is an acceptance of imperfection and an enjoyment in the process of creating and recreating in knitting.
The author feels grateful for their creative time and growth, and they believe their mother would be proud of their creative endeavors.

Am I a modern Penelope?

The spark of creativity lived in my mother’s eyes. She loved to put different things together and create a new objects for the house, clothes, dolls, or anything she could think of.

Her room was full of different shelves covered with glass, wood, and fabrics. She was so excited every time she completed something! She showed me what creative joy is, how you feel when you do something that nurtures your soul.

I admired her so much but I was disappointed because I couldn’t find the same creative energy in myself. I kept asking her: “Why didn’t I get this part of your personality?” and she always replied: “It will come”.

She was right! As always… my creative joy was stuck, until I thought I could help it become real, and free it from the brakes I put on it, just like I did with many other aspects of my personality. I had to act since it was not flowing out of my hands, my voice, or my eyes.

That’s one of the reasons why I decided to improve my writing. I wanted to nourish my creativity and that’s when I encountered joy.

I write, and then I read the articles written by some great authors, and my heart is full of love. I put something of me out there, I get something from other people, the energy we exchange is full of happiness.

Yet, I must admit I have a secret joy: I like knitting, but since I am not very expert at it and not a very precise person, I keep undoing it.

At first, I was angry at my bad attempts, I read books, spoke to friends, and watched videos. Then I realized that in time I will improve, but for the moment I could try to simply enjoy the process of knitting, and undoing my knitting.

That’s how it works. I just decide how to knit a hat, or a scarf, work on it with all my passion, and then, once it is almost finished, look at it and finally undo my knitting and use the yarn for something else.

It is a nice way to spend some time in the evening, and it is relaxing. In the end, I am grateful for my creativity and for the time I have to improve it. My mother would be very proud of me!