My Body Is Failing

Summary

The author of the article is facing a severe health crisis that has exacerbated to the point where they can no longer write or engage with the community as before, leading to the decision to deactivate their account.

Abstract

The author reveals a personal struggle with a chronic and acute health condition that has recently taken a significant toll on their physical well-being. Despite their youth, the condition has progressed to a critical point, causing intense pain and impacting their ability to perform daily activities, including writing. The author expresses gratitude towards specific individuals for their support during this challenging time, noting that the decision to deactivate their account is imminent due to their inability to continue writing. They reflect on their approach to life, emphasizing the importance of gratitude and finding joy in the everyday, especially when dealing with health issues. The author also acknowledges the mental challenges faced in writing due to respiratory failure, which affects their memory and language skills. With a focus on obtaining medical help and support, the author thanks their readers and the community for their engagement and shared humor.

Opinions

The author has a deep appreciation for the support received from Henya Drescher, Julie KingGood, and CosmicDancer, valuing their compassion, generosity, and encouragement.
There is a sense of regret and sadness about the necessity to deactivate their account due to health reasons.
The author advocates for maintaining a positive attitude, gratitude, and the pursuit of joy, particularly for those with health conditions.
Frustration is expressed

So my garden is suffering

photo by author

Some of you may know that I have a chronic health condition. It is also acute at times. It is extremely rare and I have not received the medical care I should have done.

Now, my body is failing in so many ways. I am in great pain and cannot continue to live as I do, which means I can no longer write.

I am young; this is not age-related. I have been in denial for a few months, but an occasion three weeks ago pushed my body further towards this crisis.

I am so grateful to Henya Drescher for her compassionate understanding. She wrote her most recent article with me in her thoughts. I want to thank Julie KingGood for her generosity and love. I thank CosmicDancer for the compliments she has given me and for the pleasure I have in reading her.

I will be deactivating my account. There are so many writers here that I appreciate. Thank you for reading me, for engaging with me and the humor we have shared in comments.

I have lived with gratitude for what I have and looked for joy in everyday things. I recommend this attitude to anyone, especially if you have a health condition.

My writing has become more difficult mentally too. I have respiratory failure, which affects my immediate memory, thus making spelling, syntax, and recall of words for alliteration very frustrating. I cannot be frustrated just now. I need to concentrate on getting the medical help I need and support for my needs.

Thank you all.