My Addiction to Cigarettes and My Plan to Stop
Cold turkey doesn’t work for me
For the past six years, I have been a heavy smoker. What started as a way to get a mild head rush has turned into an upwards $50/day habit. I still smoke a pack a day of native cigarettes, which cost me $5 a day
I want to stop smoking so I can invest that money instead of spending it frivolously. However, the urge to smoke is strong, and I end up still hooked.
Here is my story, how I got hooked and what I plan to do now to quit for good.
It began with me smoking blunts
My cigarette addiction started when I was smoking marijuana with my friend. He preferred to smoke tobacco with weed, so he rolled the two together into a blunt. I thought the tiny bit of smoking would not make me addicted to it. I was wrong, and I ended up addicted.
On the night I bought my first pack, I was out of alcohol and marijuana, and there was nothing open to buy these substances. I liked the rush the little bit of tobacco gave when I smoked the joint with tobacco, and I wanted a substance, so I bought a pack of cigarettes.
My first whole cigarette gave me a pleasurable head rush. It felt good, and it gave me a decent high. However, I would never experience this high after a few months, and tobacco turned into something necessary to feel OK. After smoking the pack, I was officially addicted.
Spending a fortune on cigarettes
I got up to smoking five packs of “real” cigarettes (the ones you get from stores) pretty quickly. I was still getting that rush, but shortly after, I would only smoke it because my body craved it. Very quickly, I spent a lot of money on cigarettes.
If I were to estimate how much I spent on cigarettes alone, it would amount to a down payment on the rental property I want to buy. People often point this out to me. If I didn’t smoke or piss money away on any of my other addictions, I would already be a real estate investor.
I would learn about native cigarettes, and yes, it did help me spend less. Still, I had to walk to the bank, then go to the neighbour who sold them. Sometimes, they would not be home, or they would be out. I didn’t like the walk and wasted a lot of my COVID-19 money on store-bought cigarettes.
If I got them from my neighbour and did not buy them from the store, I would be closer to the down payment.
I’ve made many attempts to quit in the past
I wanted to stop smoking as soon as I started, but I liked that mild high. By the time I didn’t get a rush after smoking cigarettes, I was hooked. This was back when I was also addicted to alcohol and marijuana, so I was always after a high of some kind.
I considered hypnosis because I heard it has a decent success rate. I wouldn’t say I liked the idea of getting in a suggestible state and having somebody else influence my thinking. What I ended up doing was listening to a YouTube video saying quit smoking affirmations. It didn’t work, as I still craved cigarettes.
I then considered NRTs. Where I live, anybody with the province’s health insurance plan is eligible for up to three months of the gum or patch, etc. It helped reduce cravings, but I still liked smoking the tobacco. Absorbing or chewing tobacco doesn’t feel as good as smoking it, so I continued to smoke.
I then read Allen Carr’s book The Easy Way To Stop Smoking, and while what Carr was saying made sense, the “little monster” he refers to in his book is more potent than Carr makes it co
Champix has helped me cut down
I asked my doctor to put me on Champix, and I went from smoking two packs a day to one. This is a major improvement for sure. I can spend my money on other things.
I still am smoking a pack a day, though. Cutting my smoking in half has helped me save more money, meaning my disability cheque lasts longer. I still run out of money before the month ends, but not as fast.
When I take the Champix with the nicotine gum, I feel my urges go away, and it compliments the medication well. But there is something I like about smoking a cigarette, and the gum isn’t the same as a smoke.
What I plan to do now
As of this writing, I have one cigarette left. The last time I said on my blog I was quitting, I ended up still smoking. Instead of saying, “I quit as of posting this article”, This time, I’m not stopping cold turkey.
I am going to try chewing the gum when I get an urge to smoke a cigarette. I also intend to consider other reasons besides saving money as a motivator. In addition to having more money, I will tell myself I am getting healthier, and I will have more.
Instead of smoking all day, I will find other things to do. Going to the groups my rehabilitation services provide will give me both avenues to develop more interests and learn skills to remain sober. I have to go outside to smoke a cigarette, and when I do that 20 times a day, that is around an hour and a halves of my day sitting outside.
So my goal for right night now is to resist the urge to smoke for as long as I can. Most cravings pass in 15 minutes. This is where finding an activity to replace smoking will help me. Instead of smoking, I could get immersed in an audiobook. Anything to keep me occupied. If it’s too strong an urge, I will chew the gum.
For now, I will not smoke more than ten cigarettes a day. Spend my time finding things to keep me occupied, like trying to get ahead financially. I have a computer and internet connection and a ton of time on my hands. I could find something.
So after posting this article, I’m going to watch videos on day trading.
