Summary

The author reflects on the mistake of pursuing physics due to the influence of Richard Feynman's passion rather than their own interest, leading to disillusionment and eventual disengagement from the field.

Abstract

The article recounts the author's experience of being captivated by Richard Feynman's infectious enthusiasm for physics, which led them to pursue the subject in college. However, the reality of rigorous academic study, devoid of the joy and passion Feynman embodied, was a stark contrast. The author realized that their love was not for physics itself but for the way Feynman presented it. This misalignment between expected and actual experiences caused the author to question their choice and ultimately give up on physics. The piece serves as a cautionary tale about the importance of distinguishing between admiring someone else's passion and having a genuine personal interest in a subject. It advises readers to introspect and ensure that their pursuits are truly their own, suggesting that only by doing so can one achieve true independence and fulfillment in their endeavors.

Opinions

The author believes that their initial interest in physics was misguided, stemming from admiration for Feynman rather than a personal passion for the subject.
There is a clear disappointment with the academic environment and teaching style encountered in college, which lacked the inspiring qualities of Feynman's approach.
The author suggests that readers should critically assess their motivations for pursuing a field, ensuring that their passion is intrinsic and not just a reflection of someone else's enthusiasm.
The article emphasizes the importance of self-reflection and questioning one's choices to avoid pursuing a path that is not genuinely fulfilling.
It is implied that true satisfaction in one's pursuits comes from personal passion, not from emulating the interests of others, and that this realization is crucial for personal growth and independence.

Modeling My Mentor’s Passion Was A Huge Mistake

Mr. Feynman, I love you, but it’s your fault.

Your radiant passion. Your obsession is magnetic. Your physics isn’t the same.

Reading your Physics Lectures felt like entertainment. But being in airtight college classrooms felt like a nightmare.

Soulless, unpassionate professors teaching with resentment didn’t meet my expectations.

They treated physics as their dead-end job, not a passion.

I realized that “modern, real physics” isn’t the same. It’s not like your joyful, energizing storytelling.

REAL physics is tough, just like in high school.

Proofs
Calculations
Theories
Exceptions

No soul, no joy, pure work.

But, I decided to study physics regardless.

I expected you Richard Feynman to show up and give us your miraculous presentations.

But, the reality was different.

I didn’t apply for physics; I applied for you.

But you weren’t there, physics was.

My exceptionally high expectations diminished, and I gave up.

But nobody understood me. They thought I was making things up. That I was changing my mind all the time.

They didn’t realize that I applied for Feynman, not science.

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And that wasn’t the first such case in my life.

I played chess for the love my mentor had for it
I wanted to become a lawyer for Grisham
I wanted my PhD for my uncle

You want:

The love
Passion
Intrigue

Other people have for their craft.

And that doesn’t imply that you love the same thing.

Their passion infected you.

So, what you need to do is to discover what’s actually yours.

To discover YOUR own passion, not take on theirs’.

You should do the following:

Ask yourself:

“Is this my own passion? Or do I just enjoy observing the master doing his craft?”

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Do you still enjoy it?

If not, then you might be on the wrong path!

Do it yourself and observe your passion.

Reflect on the experience

If I did that 4 years ago, I would not go to physics college.

It was odd to me why:

I don’t enjoy physics in high school
Physics books were boring
Others than Feynman (and Nikola Tesla) couldn’t spark my joy for physics

But I didn’t reflect.

I studied physics.

I suffered.

I didn’t question. That was the mistake!

Always question!

Question your passions. Question your decision. Question your actions.

And not long from now, you’ll be in charge.

You’ll do only what you truly love. And other people will have no impact on your decision.

You’ll become a truly independent human being!

And that will unlock crazy possibilities, beyond any measure.

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