Mental Health: I Wonder, Will I Ever Stop Getting Anxiety Attacks?

Learn to manage your anxiety because you cannot fully get rid of it.

“You put a lot of pressure on yourself with work. It need not be this stressful!”, my husband suggested seeing me all worked up.

I replied, “Well, you can say that. You have a solid job. Here, I am re-entering the workforce after a career break. That too, into a job which is relatively new to me. And on top of that in a startup which is not even an year old.”

I let out my anger out of disappointment at myself and the world.

It has been a month I started working part-time and it is taking the toll on me. With a small baby, I am trying to juggle home and work. My sleep cycle and in turn mental health is ruined. Clearly my overthinking brain is making things worse.

Today, morning I was offering the daily prayer. In a rather desperate effort, I was asking God to help me and guide me.

A thought stuck me. It was as if He answered my prayers. Guess it was rather a question shot towards me.

Will you ever stop worrying?

I didn’t have to think about it. I will never stop worrying.

The beauty of life is IT IS NEVER PERFECT. There will be always things which can be better.

For 2 years, I worried about getting a job.

Now, after getting a job of my choice and which gave me some flexibility when compared to a 9–5, I am worried about the novelty of the job. The irony is in my previous work innings, I worried about the job being so redundant and the lack of chances for learning new things.

This is not the story of my life but all of us.

Managing stress is key.

For me, writing is a stress buster. Honestly, I am writing this to take my mind off the stress at work .

On this mental health day, tell me how are you coping with your anxiety?