Photos Taken By Kira Dawn
Mommy! Mommy!
Can we go back to the days of mommy and me?
The world was so easy.
Not a worry in the world.
Then the storms formed along the horizon.
The blackest of clouds.
God speaking out loud.
Warnings.
Stop fighting,
Can’t you see your daughter is dying
She is barely surviving.
I love you both mom and dad,
But now these happy pictures just make me sad.
I remember nothing that way anymore.
I do remember threats and screaming
Slamming of doors.
Scared to go home. Intensity building.
Anxiety looming.
Panic attack waiting to happen.
Instantaneously I had lost my Batman (daddy)
I guess I will look for love somewhere else.
If I get skinny I will fell better about myself.
The scale says 88.2 and I’m still not happy.
Everybody is asking you if I have Cancer or AIDS daddy.
What comes next?
Oh shit I forgot the sex. I will do whatever you want as long as you promise you will like me the best.
Insecurity looming.
BMW stereo booming.
Storms on the horizon.
Black clouds not lying.
Kira was slowly dying.
Snorting cocaine up my nose.
Judge!, Judge!, Judge!
Fuck these hoes!
Rehab
Didn’t work dad.
Needles, spoons.
Heroin take me to the moon.
I see the black clouds loom.
Filled with a sense of doom.
Detox.
Shadow Box.
Found Jesus through my track marks.
Thank God because I was in a bad way.
8 years later it is over.
I am a different woman.
I am sober.
Thank you Jesus.
Thank you Mom and Dad.
I was too young to realize the love I had.
Forgive and Forgiven.
Drive to Driven.
A scar to remind me.
Is this really Kira? “Yes this is she.”
Love you Mom. We all pulled it together.
Life is short.
Remember to look out for the weather.
Clouds of Black.
God talking back.
God Bless to All!
Love you All!
Pride before the Fall!
Love Always,