Manifesting

bringing something tangible into your life through attraction and belief…

I have been aware that I can manifest things for quite some time. It actually has frightened me on occasion so I have tried to put it aside. It is hard to explain but is now rushing in floods to the pages here. I am not materialistic in any way, shape, or form. I give away most things that I have acquired in my life. I honestly think people would benefit more than I from them.

Truth is I once was so scared about manifesting, that I actually dared myself and told not a soul. I was driving with the top off my ’97 Jeep Wrangler at the NJ shore blasting Bruce Springsteen music. I thought — geez I heard he drives around here at the Stone Pony on his bike- would be so cool just to see and touch his hand- I would love to thank him. I thought about that positive intention for 3 days. Six days later, my son calls from Brooklyn- “Mom, I have two tickets to meet and greet Bruce Springsteen in Manhattan. He wrote a book and we can meet at the bookstore- take off work.” Seriously, I dropped the phone- cried and it had nothing to do with Bruce or my son…it was a deeply personal thing. I was so overwrought with the whole concept I did not go ( a regret I must say) and my son sold the ticket for 800 bucks while he was waiting in line to see him — put his arm around him and snap a photo. (Personal- I don’t want that image on the net).

I believe I only told one other person ( a shaman) that very true story.

I have a ton of manifestation stories but am only writing three to make a point. I have always loved history and began scavenging for old items when in college. Buying/ selling not collecting all that much. When I decided to get a divorce, I knew I needed a better truck. My husband always thought my treasure hunting was annoying I think. It was actually a necessity. Although I taught — I had two kids and he refused to work ( that is another story). So the issues with the Toyota Tacoma were many and I was driving and actually said aloud “ Hey Mom- You HEAR me..I am getting out of this relationship but have to make it for me and the kids- I am great at antiquing but need a truck to do so- hey and make it cream colored so I know you are listening…” Laughed and went to drive the long way home — divorcing is a big decision, I gave it careful thought.

A week later, I left my home for a drive -my husband thought if you refuse a divorce it just won’t happen. I needed to think and then think some more. I went to sell the Tacoma and the guy said he would give me 12k for it immediately. I thought that was fair, drove off on a random road. On the side of the road, I saw a champagne-colored Toyota Tundra for sale. I laughed and pulled in and the guy said he was selling it because it has four doors and it annoyed him. He didn’t need “kid doors”. He already purchased a Silverado and had time to sell if I needed to finance it. I said no, laughed and said I have 12k — he said I told you 10k “honey” ( I hate being called” honey” ) use the rest for insurance. ( Oh, an interesting aside for the deep thinkers… the guy was a machinist, very specialized, he only made tiny parts for heart transplants and repairs. Yes. Truth. Think about that one.) With these decisions, my heart was totally being repaired. Re-built actually.

So, I did. I got the truck, room for the kids, divorced, opened an antique co-op, and rescued two golden retrievers all within a month.

I was explaining manifestation to my daughter. The best I can figure is that it has to be of good intent. The above are just random samples of my life but yesterday’s is what prompted me to write.

I am on a spring break from teaching. I went to Frenchtown NJ — a cool hippie vibe town with my daughter. We walk the trails and browse antiques. We visit coffee shops. While sitting drinking cortado this cool Bernese puppy appears with its owner. They happen to live in Brooklyn — the same area as my son. We talked for a long while. I have always rescued dogs- I understand the breeder thing, but even with all of the goldens I have had- they were rescues. My love, Steve, a golden of 12 years, recently passed and I have been pondering if I want to do it all again. When we left the owner of the puppy gave us the contact for the Bernese puppy she had. It was on my mind — but again there are so many dogs that need placement.

Of Good Intent- here it comes. That night, so random — I get a text message and a photo of TWO 1-year-old Bernese Mountain dogs looking for a home. Free. Random. Random. Did I mention random? My private phone. Anyway, I called the guy who is local and needs to place both and will not separate them. ( I think his girlfriend left him- gotta qualify all of that and ask where he got my number to text!) — Two dogs. Might be a lot to handle, but that is not the purpose of this. Whether I take them or not I am to be a part of this scenario/placement whatever. He just texted this morning to give me directions but I have a few more questions before I hop in the jeep…vet, trained, food, etc… I am still not sure about this adventure. It will play out shortly.

My point- if there is one lol- is the universe is trying to help, maybe we should all just open our lives to it a bit more. The key may be discernment in which direction to go. However, I do feel strongly about the positivity of it all. I think it frightens me a bit because I am not sure what to manifest best if that makes any sense. I, personally, have to work on not being frightened of it …my shadow work I guess. The next chapter is unfolding- just not sure which way the pages will turn.

If you think I am crazy- that is ok.

My powerful shaman friend told me I was powerful, now that is crazy…

If you choose to you may — Buy me a coffee?