Lunacy: A Collection of Online Journals
Insight into life at the edge of human experience.

Here is a page dedicated to the book.
Over the course of several years, I experienced the despair, devastation, stress, and misery of my mental illness, as well as the euphoria, enthusiasm, optimism, and hope for the future. I felt trapped in a system to be medicated against my free will to control something as mysterious and destructive as mania which made me delusional and lose my mind on several occasions. I questioned how much control I have over my own thoughts and being, who I actually was, and who I could become. I theorized, analyzed, and discovered new ideas. These online journals chronicle my journey towards healing through investigation and expression.
I came up with the thought that the mind has a mind of its own, that we have a parallel mental nature. Essentially it goes like this:
I want to know where dreams come from and I keep on thinking up this second kind entity that co-exists within our own mind but lives primarily in the dream world or imaginary realm and doesn’t have a good understanding of how to behave in reality, kind of like a collection of unconscious impulses coalesced into a living thinking being that has the power to influence parallel thinking and multi-dimensional simulation capability, to essentially perform magic in dreams such as conjuring, teleportation, formation of three-dimensional objects, and possessing dream characters to interact with us. However, I can’t seem to find a full and complete picture of what the second kind is and how to talk to my own reliably, since I get the impression it wants to remain hidden and a secret from me and from us all.
A mind child of my meandering thoughts, the “second kind” theory is something I believe could change how people interact with themselves and with the rest of the world. I introduce it in my book in a preliminary way for further investigation to be done. It explains my experiences in a more seamless way, especially those I have in lucid dreams.
The online journals rang true with the community I shared it with and could elucidate the struggles many suffering from bipolar disorder face from day to day, and hopefully provide solace and peace to certain problems that arise. I myself am much healthier now and continue to flourish.
Aimee Sparrow is an author, applied philosopher, and mathematician who has been living with a mood disorder for more than a decade and advocates for happiness and inner peace. She is the author of Lunacy. Follow her website for more details.
