Lover

hey it’s been a month now are you feeling free like an arrow released from a bow are you feeling free from my unstable mentality

i am doing alright busy during the day and drown in my own thoughts at night i think about the last moments that we spent without realizing it back then

i remember the last sunset meal we had together the last grocery shopping was at super duper the last pizza was at trattoria bello and you gave me the last roses 2 years ago

i still order food and drinks that you recommended i still use that watercolor painting set that you gave me on our 800 days i still treasure the first gift you gave on my birthday

you said you’re happy when i’m happy 5 years later, is it exhausting being with me? you said you can’t handle many things at once so, are you relieved now that i’m gone?

i’m not asking you to stay we both know it’s better this way but selfishly i secretly wish that you won’t let go of me too quick

gone with time the place dedicated for me will be fading silently an image of me will become blurry and a new lovely sunshine will land to make your heart alive again

you’ll hold her hand and hug her tight promise to protect her heart and soul with all your might but will you get déjà vu when you ask her not to leave you?

’cause this was what you asked me again and again you said you wanted me was i a fool to believe you so was i a saint to let you treat me so low

as for me, it’s gonna take longer to heal for my heart to be properly sealed and there i question will i ever love and be loved again

why didn’t i notice it were you always ready for an exit our future that you refused to discuss we all deserve someone who is sure about us

at this moment i’m very damaged will my broken pieces ever be salvaged i’m sinking as the light dims i was left by a man who used to ask me not to leave him.

i wrote this poem to cope with the pain i’m so sorry if you are also going through this.

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