Lost In Thoughts

Summary

Gurpreet Dhariwal, a 26-year-old writer, reflects on the importance of writing in their life as a means of self-expression and coping with anxiety and depression, while also expressing a desire to rekindle their passion for writing after a period of inconsistency.

Abstract

In the personal essay "Lost In Thoughts," Gurpreet Dhariwal delves into the mental and emotional journey of their writing process. They confess that not writing leaves them feeling anxious and depressed, emphasizing that writing serves as a form of stress relief and a way to represent themselves authentically. Despite previous lapses in their writing routine, they express a renewed commitment to their craft, acknowledging the deceitful beliefs that led to past abandonments. Dhariwal finds peace in solitude and love in relationships, but writing provides a unique sense of vitality and fulfillment. They long for the spontaneity and adventure of past times and resist the constraints of time management, wishing for more hours in a day to pursue their passions. The essay culminates in a realization of the importance of seizing the moment and working towards one's dreams, which Dhariwal believes leads to happiness and good fortune. They express gratitude for their life and the ability to connect with themselves, promising to write without the constraints of schedules and false promises. The author concludes with well-

Musings of my 26 years old mind

Thinking, thinking, and thinking, that’s what I have been doing for the past few weeks. Writing ah, yeah, I want to write, I have thoughts in my mind, I want to imprint all of them on a piece of paper. I feel anxious and depressed when I don’t write. It’s like a stress buster for me. When I write, I represent myself and my thought process to you. I won’t deny but I missed it badly in the past few months.

I’ve been “on and off” the track in writing. The reasons are many and every time I try to convince myself with a deceitful belief i.e. ‘This time, I won’t abdicate, this time, doesn’t matter, whatever happens, I will write at least once in a week”. The rest is history. Am I right?

I visit sanctum for peace of mind, I keep contact with my loved ones for love but to be feel alive and high, I write. I write for myself. I thank you all for showing your gratitude towards me by praising whatever I write. I have learned the art of handling the criticism also. To tell you the truth, it’s not that tough either.

I detest life at times. It has become monotonous and boring. It doesn’t have any new and challenging role to offer me right at this time. I’ve become patient also. I miss those times when I used to watch movies 24X7, roamed around with friends, visited new places, met new people, and most importantly enjoying little things carelessly. Time plays a game. I don’t want to indulge myself into the art of learning about Time Management concept. It doesn’t imbue me anymore. Time flies and at times, I wish there were 48 hours in a day.

All of a sudden, I have realized that it’s the best time to get back on track. It’s the best time to work towards your dreams, it’s the best time to bring back all whatever you have lost and missed in the past. Wow, it’s such an amazing feeling. It uplifts my spirit. It shows me the path towards happiness and good fortune.

I thank God for giving me this wonderful life. From time to time, whenever I come across this realization, I feel like a bird. I feel like flying high with wings and spreading the message of peace and serenity. I feel like touching the sky and aim high. Don’t worry; I’m not talking about fairy tales. I’m talking about myself because I have learned how to stay connected to myself.

Before I leave all of you in an illusion, I will write irrespective of the time and day. I will write whenever and wherever I feel like rather than making false promises,. Life is too short to make a schedule for everything. The moment you think you will do something, time changes everything around us. Many of you may think that I’ve become insane or zany? And to tell you something, I’m learning how to be somewhere at the right time.

My friends,

I wish you all the best in whatever you’re doing at present. May you fly high and receive the love of people around you. May God shower its blessings and mercy on you. May you face every situation with a positive attitude and leave all the worries as life has just begun. Let’s enjoy and celebrate the spirit of being alive.

*From my blogging journal (2011).

Gurpreet Dhariwal is the author of “My Soul Rants: Poems of a Born Spectator.” Her eBook is now available at Google PlayStore, Amazon, and Kindle. Connect with Gurpreet on LinkedIn, Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, or Youtube