Living alone & disabled. 👍I got this!
It’s been over a week.🖐👩🦰 I was terrified. 😱It’s gonna be just fine.
I did nothing but read and comment for days!
I ate a whole pie by myself and a bunch of crackers a cheese crap. I didn’t shower, so my hair was a train wreck! — I was a hot mess! — I was scared.
Thank you everyone for your support!
I wrote, “My roommate left after 14 years!👬” hoping to get support because I was FREAKING OUT. — I am not 100% & I was scared.
I'm speechless! 😲 So many wonderful Medium friends gave me support. — Thank you all my friends!
There are tons of wonderful comments.🧡
I am blown-away! As of right now, this story has gotten 262 comments! 🖐🖐👩🦰💨I am 100% blown away! I wanted to include all of the comments and thank everyone here but would have been a 2 hour read.
So, now I have calmed down and realized it’s okay.
I contacted a social worker so if I need help, which I almost never do, I can get it. I am pretty shocked because I can do almost everything.
I had asked Matt to give me 2 years to get better.
I had given him 2 years of insanity to get well when he was off his schizophrenia meds. He gave me 11 months. No worries. The dust has settled and now I know that will be just fine.
In case you haven’t seen the video when he was off his meds, here it is. — He was BAT CRAZY!
He said f*ck 300–500m times a day. He never got physical, but it was brutal for 2 years. — I just sat at my desk and never spoke. I did Medium from the time I woke up until I went to bed.
Some addicted neighbor chick wanted to borrow our rake.
They never return stuff. — They sell it.
Schizophrenia…1 out of 300 hundred people have it.
Below id aBelow id a brief explanation about schizophrenia, so you know more.
It’s very correct. — 🎬 Run time 2 min 25 seconds.
So I am now thinking that living alone is good.
Planning your lifePlanning your life with a schizophrenic is almost impossible. Roommate just don’t jump up one day and move out.
My bills just doubled. — Schizo screwed me.
I make $910 a month on disability, and now my bills are $850. Thank God for Medium.
So this was our house, but now it’s my house.
Here are a couple of pics of my crib for fun. — It’s pretty simple.
Matt had a nice place to live. He got paranoid.
Schizo reared its head. He thought people were gonna steal his stuff. He had his own bedroom and bathroom.
Now he lives in this camper. No fridge or way to cook.
It is kinda cute, but to me, a fridge is a big deal. He will survive. It’s his, which is cool. He just has to pay lot rent and power.
Mia lives with me now & the other 3 dogs live with Matt. — But they come here every day.
Every day his three dogs, formerly ours, Bam Bam, Thor & Daisy. I think the camper is too small for all of them.
💩I think they are peeing and pooping inside it.
So yes, I will survive. Actually, I am more relaxed, because my world feels stable.
I did freak out at first, and you guys had my back! I love my Medium friends.
Below are a few of the loving comments left by wonderful Medium friends.
I wish I could post all 262 comments. I tagged the other folks who so sweetly commented on the original story. I just wanted you all to know that everything is okay.
JD Adams ~ Stories From the Mountain
Other than meOther than me having the desire to knock him out for speaking to you as he does and entirely disrespecting you, I would suggest you find another roommate. I grew up with a brother who was schizophrenic and committed suicide. This friend of yours needs some serious help and should be institutionalized. If he isn’t a danger to others, he is a danger to himself.
Michelle Renee Kidwell
You've got this Jan, you'll do great...May 2024 bring you great success...
Marta Henriques
Exactly! Don't be afraid, sometimes a new beginning can be scary but we always have to see the positive side🤞🏻 Wish you a Happy New Year dear friend 😊
Charles Amemiya
That’s great you helped this guy when he really needed it Jan. You’ve got a big ❤️ I think you just need to make sure you’re not being taken advantage of and your needs are met in a healthy way. Schizophrenia can be very hard to deal with. I knew several people who had it.
Elizabeth Sobieski
I remember when I remember when he was off the meds. I was worried about you, Jan. But he sounds much better now. When you said he was living in the woods, I was imagining him in a tent. The camper seems like it will keep him from homelessness. The fact that he……
Dion Groove
Wow…some roller coasterWow…some roller coaster ride Jan! — Wishing u a happy 2024 in the now as you do to keep cool🙏🐱😎
R C Hammond
Wow, Jan. Talk about a bombshell, huh?
Things will work out for you, amiga.
’24 will be your year to stabilize things and continue kicking ass.
Hang in, one day at a time. You can do it!
Gracias.
Penny Grubb
I don’t know much about schizophrenia but I gather it can be very well controlled if they can get the meds right, which it sounds like they did. Such a shame he went off them. Hope he doesn’t try that again. Best of luck.
Kerrie Gutierrez-Diaz
I’m sad you have to be alone, even though he comes over every day but it’s not the same. But I’m happy he is gone in ways. I was so made reading how he had been treating you but after having someone there for a long time and then they were gone. You have……
Bruce Coulter
That was a helluva ride, Jan. But you’ve got this. Stay strong and use your skills, writing, writing, and painting. 2024 will be good for you. Cheers!
Jessica Levine
Jan, I am so sorry for all that you have had to go through. I know you are scared, anything new and different is nerve-wracking. I am sending you love and hugs. It’s hard to see it now, but it will all work out. My best advice is to communicate your……
Denis Gorbunov
Jan, what a tragic story. I didn’t know your roommate had been abused as a child… I remember the video where he curses you. I hope you finally have peace of mind. Happy New Year, my friend!
Willow Reed
You are one brave soul Jan. The amount of patience and love you have for your best friend, respect!💯👏💖
But I was slightly triggered when he cursed at you like that. Illness or not, that was really disturbing.😟
Regina Paul
Dang Jan, you are the strongest woman I know, and I’ve known some very tough, strong women in my life. I love how much you love no matter what happens in your life! You definitely got this! The only advice I can offer and I have to remind myself……
Tovah Rainsong
Relationship karma is difficult. You stick with your mission in life. He needs to find out what his mission is. Hang in there. Sounds like a bit of a ride at the moment. Take care of yourself Jan.
Steffany Ritchie
Onward and upwards Jan. I am sorry you were both going through the worst time at the same time. You have a big heart, I hope you make lots of new friends in the 55 and up community. Wishing you all the very best for 2024, you got this! ❤️👊
Gennadiy Shevtsov
The simplicity of stoic philosophy, as explained here, is truly enlightening.
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All that aside, Happy New Year Jan and I wish you the best this coming year.
