Lie to Me
Lie to me because I don’t believe you and
The reason why I don’t believe you is the exact same
Reason why I can’t.
The questions that I want to ask are questions that would hurt you and
You tell me you’re an open book, but what is a book, unbound?
Feelings on pages absent any seams, glue or staples
A sea of letters scattered on the ground
I can’t do that
Even people like me have rules of engagement, and this would be
Decidedly in violation
I want to believe that you want to talk to me, but I can’t ask because
The response is the same either way, one your face real, one is a mask and
It hurts good people when they become a part of the cast
In your real-life reenactment of your troubled past
As it turns out, when good people tell you they love you, it hurts them
When you say that they don’t and you laugh
Saying all this makes me sound bad
But hurt people understand that
Recovery is taking refuge inside of the shell that you
Built for yourself when your house felt like hell
Now the walls are still up and you’re scared to remove them
But at the same time, you just want to be held
It’s saying you just want somebody to love you and
Pushing away everybody that does
Swear that I don’t know what love even looks like
Smothering my chance to feel like I’m enough
I spend time in silence and want you to talk to me
Just so this time you’re the one who has to wait
The things that I say make me sound like I’m crazy
But in my life, people don’t reciprocate
I want to move on but the past pulls me backward
Try so hard in spite of it to look ahead
I really am busy but you wouldn’t know it
Cause I hit you back soon as I see it’s read
I want to be different, I’m trying my best to
Take twenty-four hours one day at a time
I’ve changed but in some ways I am still compulsive
Reading over your messages, in between lines
I’m not the one chasing but my mind is racing
Wild cause I cut men off without thinking
What if this time you just don’t see it in me
What if it’s not like the first time you’d seen me?
It’s hard to say if I’ll believe that you’re honest
Tell me I’m beautiful, lie to me






