Summary

Jammie, an almost 40-year-old music educator and mother of three, reflects on her life at a crossroads, grappling with the authenticity of relationships, her passion for teaching, and her aspirations to make a difference in the world, particularly for black students in classical music.

Abstract

Jammie, an educator approaching her 40s, contemplates the complexities of her life as she faces a period of significant change. She ponders the nature of relationships, having encountered many that felt inauthentic, and questions the value of entering new ones. Despite feelings of loneliness and being undervalued, Jammie is introspective and self-aware, identifying as an extroverted introvert, a dreamer, and someone historically affected by depression. Professionally, she is a flutist and musician who has dedicated her career to music education, and she is deeply passionate about issues affecting black women, mothers, and the black conscience. Residing in Atlanta with multiple college degrees, Jammie works as a Band Director when not "in trouble," and her approach resonates with students while challenging poor administration. Her involvement in various organizations stems from a desire to effect global change. With a right-brained, artistic soul, Jammie dreams of establishing a conservatory to create opportunities for black students in classical music.

Opinions

Jammie values authenticity in relationships and is wary of entering new ones due to past experiences with "faux" individuals.
She is introspective and self-reflective, recognizing her own complexities such as being an extroverted introvert and historically depressed.
Jammie is passionate about her career in music education and is committed to empowering black students in the field of classical music.
She believes that with proper understanding, her contributions could greatly benefit the world.
Jammie is critical of bad administration in educational settings but is beloved by her students.
She is an idealist with a desire to change the world through her involvement in various organizations and her artistry.
Jammie feels undiscovered and undervalued, yet she maintains a hopeful outlook on her ability to impact society positively.

Jammie (pronounced Jamie)-Writer Bio

Being at a crossroads in your life is a very interesting time. Approaching 40 is confusing. Career, relationships, “love”, are all just for the sake of comfort.

Situations happen sometimes to FORCE you to change your trajectory. It is difficult and there are angry moments. Relationships you thought you cherished and people who you thought were in your corner that you had to associate yourself with. You discover that they are “faux”. More “faux” than hair weave. Then what do you do?

You’re alone, you are lonely, very….

You question whether to enter relationships again. What for? For more “faux” individuals to enter your life and play pretend? You decide to stay alone.

“If I’m alone at least I know who it is I’m dealing with.”

Who am I? I am an almost 40 year old mom of 3 at a Crossroads in my life. My career has been as an educator, a music educator to be exact. I am a flutist and a musician. I am an extroverted introvert. I am a dreamer. I am in love with love but I haven’t been lucky with finding it. My soul is bare and my heart is transparent. I am historically depressed and unsure of myself. I feel undiscovered. I feel slept on. If the time was put in to learn me — the world would benefit.

I care about all matters regarding Teacher Education, Racism, BLACK WOMEN, black moms, black conscience, and anything else that my ear may pick up. I reside in the Atlanta area and I have a few college degrees. I work as a Band Director when I can stay out of trouble.

My realism can intimidate bad administrators but the kids love me. I’m involved in several organizations because I also want to change the world. I’m right brained and an artist to my soul. One day I hope to open my own conservatory to be a pipeline for black students to go into classical music. I have 2 cats and if you tell me I’m pretty I’ll fall in love.