I’ve Developed a Writer’s Crush with a Woman on Medium.

She doesn’t know I have a crush on her. It came out of nowhere.

Normally I develop feelings for a woman because of what she looks like. Or how I feel when I’m around her. But I obviously haven’t had the opportunity to experience either of those things with her.

Instead, I’ve developed a crush on her because of how she writes. Because of what she writes about. Because of who she is.

I love the way she writes. I love the way she pours her soul onto the page. How she does it without reservation. With full authenticity. With no fucks given.

Translation: she’s hot.

I’ve never been attracted to a woman because of how she writes. It’s a new thing for me. Actually, I never even knew that could be a thing.

Maybe it’s because I didn’t fall in love with me until I started writing. Which means I see a lot of myself in her.

We seem to write about a lot of the same things. We seem to have a similar past marital struggle.

I know. Call it cliche. Call it Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan in You’ve got Mail. I haven’t seen that movie in forever but I remember the premise: they both love books right?

Well, it feels deeper than that to me. Because it’s not about books or writing. It’s about what it feels like to be human. And I feel things when I read her writings. I see myself in her.

Truth be told. She’s the only person on Medium that I read on a daily basis. Not because I’m stalking her. But because I identify with her.

It’s honestly been a beautiful experience, even if it has only been (and continues to be) a one-sided feeling.