It’s Hard To Trust Gay White Men

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explain why you use certain products in your hair to why you must wear lotion in the winter, there is always a teachable moment to be had. The more that I dated these men the more I began to see how ignorant they were. Oftentimes the one who was clearly stating their preferences on their dating apps, white men had a difficult time wrapping their head around the idea that it can be problematic to outwardly state you will not even consider certain races.</p><p id="97de" type="7">White gay men are the poster children for the LGBTQ movement with the least amount of oppression who can shield themselves in their white male privilege whenever it is deemed necessary</p><p id="3b0c">On my last attempt at dating white men, I was about to go to gay pride when my date asked me how I felt about Philly having recently changed their LGBTQ flag to include black and brown stripes. I told him that I fully supported the move because it told Black and Brown people that they mattered in this movement too. Their voices were just as important as those of white men and the city wanted to make it clear by representation on the flag. My date could not understand it. He did not understand why those stripes had to be added when the gay movement had always been for everyone. I looked at him and said, <i>but has the gay movement always been for everyone?</i></p><p id="b70f">Gay Pride has largely always represented white gay men. A google image search of the term ‘gay pride’ largely shows images of just white gay men. The city placing emphasis on Black and Brown people occurred because white gay men have a tendency to believe that because we share the same oppressor, homophobia, they play no role in other forms of oppression within the LBGT community. The movement for LGBTQ rights has been whitewashed and oftentimes white gay men are the perpetrators of discrimination within the community.</p><p id="6a39">Instead of feeling secure in my relationships with white gay men, I always felt like their dirty little secret. Like I was something to check off their list of things they tried. Never the end destination or goal, but something to look back on and say <i>they tried it</i>! It was not uncommon to go on Grindr or Jack’d and see white gay men who fetishized over Black men for specific reasons. They perpetuated the stereotype of Black men being dominant and demanding sexual service of them. Far from being seen as human, the inquiries I would get from white gay men made me feel l

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ike nothing more than an object.</p><p id="653d">I stopped dating white men after college. I was tired of the dates going nowhere. My first time dating a Black man was eye-opening. I no longer felt like an object. I was being seen and understood for all of me. There were no teachable moments to be had but shared understandings of what it means to be Black and gay. The comfort level that I began to feel with Black men made me begin to harbor mistrust for white men.</p><p id="c0dc">I began to see white gay men for what they often are — poster children for the LGBTQ movement with the least amount of oppression who can shield themselves in their white male privilege whenever it is deemed necessary. While others in the community possess neither the shield nor sword to protect against homophobia, sexism, racism, or xenophobia, white gay men possess both and often use them. That’s why it is not uncommon to see white gay men turn to conservatism because although they are oppressed in one aspect of life, they can protect against that oppression with their white male privilege.</p><p id="42b4">How are you to fully trust a group of men who latch onto the idea of oppression when they also have the strongest form of protection against it?</p><p id="c2b6">I no longer date gay white men, but I do have gay white male friends. I trust their insight because they strive to do better for their community and they see the shortcomings of others in their group. I have trust in them, but I still am hesitant to trust the larger white gay male population. It is hard to trust a group of people that do the least for the LGBTQ movement but reap the most benefits. It is difficult to unsee their ignorance. Maybe one day I will be able to openly embrace gay white men again, but I don’t see that happening while white male privilege continues to go unchecked.</p><div id="cdf9" class="link-block"> <a href="https://medium.com/perceive-more"> <div> <div> <h2>Perceive More!</h2> <div><h3>Perceive More! is a publication that features pieces challenging our understanding of reality and pushes us in wanting…</h3></div> <div><p>medium.com</p></div> </div> <div> <div style="background-image: url(https://miro.readmedium.com/v2/resize:fit:320/1*JdMAzXiK55GdDXDo_QoVzg.png)"></div> </div> </div> </a> </div></article></body>

Gay white men have a tendency to latch onto their homosexuality when they are asked to be held accountable for their whiteness.

I remember my first crush in elementary school was on a white boy. There was something so alluring and charming about him and white boys in general. The idea of dating any other race didn’t even cross my mind. Middle and high school would see me having crushes on just white boys. By the time I got to college and started to use dating apps like Grindr and Tinder, my preferences were pretty set on white men. It’s not that I didn’t find other races to be attractive, I just always wanted to be with a white man.

Being a poor college student who was lucky to have $20 in their bank account at a given moment, my dates were usually very low-key and simple. By the time I turned 21, happy hours became my best friend because it allowed for us to have 2 hours to drink and eat cheaply and quickly figure out if this was going to go anywhere or not. My fascination with white men meant that all of my dates were with them.

Around 22 is when I had a blossoming of sorts and began to get lots of interest from people on dating apps. It wasn’t uncommon to go on and see 10+ messages. A common pattern began to emerge as I saw that I almost always only found interest in the white matches. The more dates that I went on with white men the more a pattern began to emerge.

I was fascinated and in love with white men, seeing a future with one, but I didn’t get the same sense of feelings back. I would be hanging out watching a movie with them and an innocent conversation of celebrity crushes would come up and it was almost always the case that they would name a white male celebrity. I would pretend to agree with them, but a part of me started to question if I was what they wanted in a partner. Was I going to fulfill all their wants and needs if they couldn’t even name a black celebrity they had a crush on?

Dating white men often felt like constantly teaching. From having to explain why you use certain products in your hair to why you must wear lotion in the winter, there is always a teachable moment to be had. The more that I dated these men the more I began to see how ignorant they were. Oftentimes the one who was clearly stating their preferences on their dating apps, white men had a difficult time wrapping their head around the idea that it can be problematic to outwardly state you will not even consider certain races.

White gay men are the poster children for the LGBTQ movement with the least amount of oppression who can shield themselves in their white male privilege whenever it is deemed necessary

On my last attempt at dating white men, I was about to go to gay pride when my date asked me how I felt about Philly having recently changed their LGBTQ flag to include black and brown stripes. I told him that I fully supported the move because it told Black and Brown people that they mattered in this movement too. Their voices were just as important as those of white men and the city wanted to make it clear by representation on the flag. My date could not understand it. He did not understand why those stripes had to be added when the gay movement had always been for everyone. I looked at him and said, but has the gay movement always been for everyone?

Gay Pride has largely always represented white gay men. A google image search of the term ‘gay pride’ largely shows images of just white gay men. The city placing emphasis on Black and Brown people occurred because white gay men have a tendency to believe that because we share the same oppressor, homophobia, they play no role in other forms of oppression within the LBGT community. The movement for LGBTQ rights has been whitewashed and oftentimes white gay men are the perpetrators of discrimination within the community.

Instead of feeling secure in my relationships with white gay men, I always felt like their dirty little secret. Like I was something to check off their list of things they tried. Never the end destination or goal, but something to look back on and say they tried it! It was not uncommon to go on Grindr or Jack’d and see white gay men who fetishized over Black men for specific reasons. They perpetuated the stereotype of Black men being dominant and demanding sexual service of them. Far from being seen as human, the inquiries I would get from white gay men made me feel like nothing more than an object.

I stopped dating white men after college. I was tired of the dates going nowhere. My first time dating a Black man was eye-opening. I no longer felt like an object. I was being seen and understood for all of me. There were no teachable moments to be had but shared understandings of what it means to be Black and gay. The comfort level that I began to feel with Black men made me begin to harbor mistrust for white men.

I began to see white gay men for what they often are — poster children for the LGBTQ movement with the least amount of oppression who can shield themselves in their white male privilege whenever it is deemed necessary. While others in the community possess neither the shield nor sword to protect against homophobia, sexism, racism, or xenophobia, white gay men possess both and often use them. That’s why it is not uncommon to see white gay men turn to conservatism because although they are oppressed in one aspect of life, they can protect against that oppression with their white male privilege.

How are you to fully trust a group of men who latch onto the idea of oppression when they also have the strongest form of protection against it?

I no longer date gay white men, but I do have gay white male friends. I trust their insight because they strive to do better for their community and they see the shortcomings of others in their group. I have trust in them, but I still am hesitant to trust the larger white gay male population. It is hard to trust a group of people that do the least for the LGBTQ movement but reap the most benefits. It is difficult to unsee their ignorance. Maybe one day I will be able to openly embrace gay white men again, but I don’t see that happening while white male privilege continues to go unchecked.