It Took Me 32 Years To Find My Soulmate
How multiple heartbreaks led to her, and the sound of wedding bells.
Life can be crazy sometimes, you wake up each day with air in your lungs and you start your routine in your place holder life until your real life begins.
At least that how I believe it to be.
Life was rough growing up in an abusive home, but thank God for the strength my mother had illuminated over me and my sisters that not only kept us out of as much dark as possible, but kept us as warm as the sun.
She’s an angel sent from heaven.
Other than those traumatizing moments, I took life for what it was, and made the best of it.
School was fun, met a bunch of different people who will forever have a spot in my heart and in the memory bank of my brain. Life really is what you make of it. Sometimes there really is no sunshine without rain. We just have to make sure to always carry an umbrella.
Love always came easy for me, perhaps it’s because I am such an introverted empath, or maybe I just have good luck. But I was young and naïve, I was just out there to have fun, not grow a family.
They say you have 3 real relationships in your entire life that have the most meaning out of any other, and that have the most impact.
First one is known as, “puppy love.” The one you think you’re in love with and can’t live without. The one, that ends in endless tears, and you asking yourself over and over, “what went wrong, I thought it would be forever!” Yea, that one. That is the one that you experience, in my opinion in order to help strengthen your heart for the future.
The second one is known as, “the lesson.” The one that really gets the best of you. The one where you learn and you grow into who you were meant to be. You try your hardest to be the person they want you to be, and you do for a while, losing all of your happiness because you no longer know who you are. You lose yourself trying to satisfy them. This one is the hardest one to recover from, but you come back stronger than ever!
The third one is usually the charm — your soulmate. You meet and you feel like you’ve met them before, maybe in some sort of past life. You instantly feel connected, you instantly see a future with them. Everything just clicks. They’re honest, sweet, caring, loving, and all without hesitation. You communicate, and you value one another’s feelings. The list goes on. You never dreamed about marriage and kids and building a life so bad until now. This is your soulmate — also known as, “the one!”
After 32 years, and multiple great, but failed relationships I have finally found my soulmate. And to be honest, I would go through all of the heartache again if it would lead me back right here with her.
Life sure is tricky, it takes going through many, many storms in order to find the sun. Now, nothing in life is easy it all takes hard work. But when you have finally found your soulmate, everything comes natural, and it doesn’t feel like a job, when you’re both doing your part.
We’re getting married this year. It has been almost 4 years of us, and I feel like I have loved her through many lifetimes. My love could never die, it’s eternal, and all I can say is I am forever grateful we found each other.
Sometimes we have to go through the toughest times in life in order to reach pure happiness. There are levels we must get past in order to reach the one where we are supposed to be. The crazy part is that we will feel it when we have reached it. We will instantly feel it. It feels like the most powerful magic has entered us and uncontrollable butterflies have overtaken our body. It is beautiful.
She is beautiful. And I cannot wait to spend forever with my soulmate.