Is Your Twin Flame Your Past Life?

Are you a future incarnation of your twin flame?

Spoiler alert: this story talks about high level plot lines and developments in time-travel-based TV shows including Outlander, The Nevers and Bodies.

In the summer of 2017, I was working at a new job that I had not particularly wanted to take, but my higher self had encouraged me to take it. Even though the job was not what I ultimately wanted to be doing, the still, small voice within gave me a gentle nudge, telling me that this would be an important stepping stone on the path to my future.

That summer, one of my new coworkers told me I should start watching the TV series Outlander. I thanked her for the recommendation and then forgot about it.

The next time we were together, she asked me, “Did you start watching Outlander yet?” The second reminder convinced me to log in to Netflix and start watching the series the following weekend. Once I did, I couldn’t stop.

I’m a big fan of historical fiction and I found myself riveted by the epic-ness of the story and the depth of the love between the two main characters. There was something about the whole story, and the energy of the characters, that resonated with me at a very profound level.

It was a story of an English woman named Claire, who had gone on a honeymoon with her husband to Scotland in 1945. She visited a Stonehenge-like structure, which turned out to be a portal.

The portal took her hundreds of years into the past, into 1743, where she meets the true love of her life, a red-haired Scotsman named Jamie. At 27, she is a few years “older” than Jamie; although, in terms of linear time, he is hundreds of years older than her.

Claire had been a nurse on the battlefield during World War II, and she transfers these skills into her new circumstances in the 18th century, where she refers to herself as a “healer.” She experiments with herbs to make remedies and tinctures, and some people start to fear her unusual gifts, referring to her as a “witch.”

Eventually, she confesses to Jamie that she is from the future. She herself does not know how such a thing is possible. She reveals that she has knowledge and wisdom gained from living in more modern times. She is also is able to “predict” how certain events would unfold — because for her, these events had happened in the distant past.

She uses her knowledge from the future — and of the future — to help Jamie and to try and effect change on a grand scale. For example, she tries to use her knowledge of history to influence different outcomes in the ongoing bloody battles between Scotland and England.

Despite the fact that she has a loving husband named Frank back “home” in 1945, she and Jamie begin an epic romance that is undeniably deeper than anything she had ever had with her first husband.

As the 18th century plot unfolds, a villain in the story emerges: a psychopathic Englishman named “Black Jack.” This villain happens to be the spitting image of Frank, the very husband Claire left “back” in the future (and played by the same actor). This man enjoys torturing Jamie in gruesome ways that have left his body covered in deep scars. This man’s torture goes beyond the physical into the psychological, where he tries to break Jamie’s spirit, and one time, comes dangerously close to succeeding.

At one point, Claire does eventually return “home” to the 1940s. When she does, she meets Frank (who looks exactly like Black Jack) with a type of coldness. It is not for lack of love, but simply the fact that she loves Jamie on a whole other level that nothing else can match.

Despite having left Jamie hundreds of years in the past, presumed dead, she remains faithful to him and his memory, because the love runs so deep that it is simply irreplaceable and unforgettable. When she returns back to the 1940s, she is also pregnant with Jamie’s red-haired child.

Frank is then faced with the heart-wrenching fate of loving a woman who doesn’t truly love him back, and equally, loving and caring for her child by the man she truly loves. Watching this, and seeing that “Frank” is, effectively, a kindhearted reincarnation of the narcissistic psychopath “Black Jack,” it was strikingly clear what was happening: this was his karma.

This was one of the first times that I think I started to consciously connect with a notion of how karma works.

This seemed to imply that karma isn’t “paid” by the coldhearted jerk who did the bad deed; the karma is paid by a kindhearted reincarnation of that jerk. It is paid by someone further down in the ancestral line who is a more evolved soul. The karma is paid by one who has the emotional capacity to consciously bear the suffering he inflicted on another person, and ultimately transmute that pain into unconditional love and compassion.

At the time when I was watching this in 2017, I had largely put my spirituality aside. I was trying to live firmly planted in the world of logic and reason. Karma was not something I was even sure I believed in. But something about that story, its characters, and the way it was all put together, was resonating at such a profound level that I knew it was speaking to me.

It was as though it was trying to remind me of something I had forgotten.

Around that very same time, I was given a work assignment that enabled me to spend long stretches of time alone, undisturbed, in a meeting room at a client’s office. While I was sitting there, a feeling started growing on me. It was a feeling of heartache over a guy I had broken up with six years earlier. In fact, as these feelings started sinking in, it occurred to me that we had broken up exactly six years earlier, in July of 2011.

As I sat alone in the privacy of that room, I allowed myself to cry. But my tears were not cathartic. They were tears of frustration and desperation. They were tears of torment. I had been trying to get over this guy for six straight years, and these feelings were only proving that I still wasn’t over him. I didn’t know what to do about it. These feelings were like a curse. It was like a persistent burden that refused to leave me. It felt like I had an energetic ball and chain tied around my heart.

In spite of the tidal wave of feelings, I didn’t allow myself to look him up online. I had already learned, years in the past, that nothing good could ever come of that.

I didn’t want to talk to another psychic, or a therapist. I had been there and done that. I eventually decided to email a very intuitive relationship expert whose blogs about “emotional unavailability” had been my lifeline during the early days of that breakup.

In my email, I asked her if she could help me figure out why I was still crying over a guy I had broken up with six years ago. In her reply, she informed me that it was because he was a “narcissist” and because I was hell-bent on internalizing blame for other people’s behaviour. She told me I had “sent myself to prison” over this guy because I thought I had done something to cause or deserve what he had done.

She told me to “take it as a given” that he was cheating on and abusing whoever he was currently with; after all, that is what narcissists do.

She said that his main purpose for having entered my life was to “bring my past into the present” so I could heal it.

Upon reading her response, it really wasn’t clear to me, at all, what exactly this ex-boyfriend of mine was resurrecting from my “past” for me to heal. I wasn’t convinced, either, that he was a narcissist — and I wasn’t even sure I knew what that was.

It took another five years for me to figure out what exactly had gotten into me on that July day in 2017 while I was sitting in that meeting room crying tears of despair.

What I didn’t know at the time, was that that “ex-boyfriend” was my twin flame, and that on this day, three years in the future in 2020, on the nine-year anniversary of our breakup, he was going to die.

There were other very synchronistic things about that job that I had between 2017 and 2018. For example, the office was very close to the old office where my twin flame and I had worked together in 2011.

From one of the windows of my new office, I could see through to the window of the top floor of our old office building; his desk had been right on the other side of that window. That was where I had confronted him after finding out about his karmic relationship. That was where I had been standing when I had called him a “gutless coward” and a “piece of shit.”

On my way to work, I would walk through this courtyard where he used to take private cigarette breaks. One morning in 2018, on my way into the office, I was walking through that courtyard, and I fell and sprained my left ankle. That injury — to the feminine side of my body — launched me back into body-based healing and effectively redirected me right back to my healing path.

I found out he was my twin flame in 2021, one year after he died. In 2023, I started seeing the eerie connection between past and future on that one particular day back in July 2017, which also happened to be a powerful portal in the twin flame collective (7.17).

Since I found out about the twin flame connection in 2021, I haven’t stopped writing, I haven’t stopped learning, evolving, growing, ascending and expanding my consciousness.

I receive downloads through my writing. And sometimes, I am guided to content online at precise moments when they will serve to illuminate another revelation about my journey.

The day I started writing this story was one such day.

I was compelled to open up TikTok for the first time in a while, and I found myself on the page of a divine feminine content creator who talks about her twin flame journey. She said she had finally heard an explanation of the twin flame journey that made sense to her. The explanation was this: your twin flame is your past life.

It wasn’t the first time I had heard mention of this; but it was the first time that I actually took it seriously. I had just recently received a major download about how my twin flame’s karmic relationship was an energetic mirror to my karmic relationship with a shamanic healer who had been stealing my energy.

I saw how my twin flame had not been able to transcend the codependent energy of his karmic relationship, and how I had essentially mirrored and replayed that same codependent dynamic, with a shamanic healer who even had the same name as his karmic partner.

The energies were fundamentally the same; he and I had both fallen into the same trap of energetically opening ourselves up to codependent, vampiric energies that were veiled behind people and situations we believed we “needed.”

But the difference was that my path had unfolded in a more “evolved” way, in the sense that I sought healing instead of another romantic relationship to mask and avoid the pain. And eventually, I did break free of that extremely stubborn karmic cycle. It was as though I already had had the benefit of learning from the mistakes that he made in this lifetime. It was as though I had come prepared to take those energies on from the moment I was born.

Then I realized, that would make complete sense, if I am a future version of him that was basically watching a past version of myself do all the things he did in this lifetime before he died.

Holy crap.

I realized, if I am a future version of him, and he is a past life version of me, then that means I came from the future to get “right” whatever he / I got “wrong” in this lifetime. I took on the exact same energies that he did, but just in a different way, in a different body, with different people and different types of relationships.

For example, I started my healing journey in this lifetime very early on. I started going to therapy when I was 18, and I basically never stopped doing some form of healing and growth throughout my entire adult life. It was as if something was driving me — i.e. lessons from past lives and wisdom from the future — that made me pursue a path of relentless healing as my upmost priority.

I was born a year and a half before him. It was like I had dropped myself into this timeline to get a head start on what was going to happen.

My twin flame was born exactly one year and one day before the fatal car accident that killed my father. I was two years old when that happened. That night, before we left our house, I had insisted that everyone in my family hug and kiss each other goodbye. It was the final goodbye with my father. I had known — my soul had known — what was about to happen. How?

The loss of my father was the ultimate trigger that opened me up to developing severe mental and emotional trauma that would catalyze my lifetime of healing.

Then, when I was 29, I met that “past” version of myself: the narcissistic man who was never going to spiritually awaken in this lifetime. I fell in love with him, and then I experienced what it was like to be emotionally destroyed by him.

I experienced what it was like to have love slip through my fingers because I didn’t meet his social criteria for a worthy partner. I experienced what it was like to feel crippled by emotional pain and unable to pick up the pieces and start over with anyone new, for years on end. I experienced what it was like to have every chance slip by to fulfill “society’s standard” of what a worthy woman is — a wife, a mother, a beloved partner.

If he is me and I am him, then doesn’t it make sense that I would experience, first-hand, the consequences of his behaviour?

If he is a past version of me and I am a future version of him, then doesn’t it make sense that I would be more spiritually evolved, and I would basically be able to avoid the pitfalls that he wasn’t able to?

As all of this clarity started sinking in, I started remembering Outlander, and how that show keeps reminding me about the twin flame journey. I realized that if Claire and Jamie are twin flames, then that means that she is the future version who goes into the past to meet and help that past version of herself. This also makes that much more sense when you consider the whole karmic situation with her husband Frank. Frank was destined to unconditionally love the soul of someone his ancestor had abused in a past lifetime.

Then I realized that Outlander wasn’t the only show that had been basically “speaking” to me about the nature of time, past lives, future perspectives, and time travel, throughout this journey.

I remembered the night in 2011, when my twin flame and I were still dating, and we had watched the movie Premonition with Sandra Bullock. It was a movie about a woman who had a premonition about her husband’s death and then spends the whole movie trying to prevent that outcome from unfolding.

That year, on my birthday, my twin flame had taken me to the theatre to watch the musical Billy Elliott. After the show, he asked me what my favourite part had been. I told him it was the touching scene where an older, adult version of Billy was dancing with a younger, child version of himself; a past version of himself.

Eleven years later, on November 11, 2022, one of the most powerful portals of the year, I found myself in that very same theatre, to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. I had a moment of nostalgia in the bathroom where I remembered, with grief, that precious evening in 2011 that my twin flame and I had spent at that theatre together. The Harry Potter show, I soon realized, was along the exact same lines of all these other stories — it was about travelling into the past. It was about future versions of self trying to change and prevent tragic outcomes that had happened in the past.

If that wasn’t mind-blowing enough, during intermission, I walked out of the theatre to see my former therapist sitting on a chair right outside the door. This was the very woman who had helped me cope with the initial shock and pain of my twin flame separation back in 2011.

At that point, it seemed quite clear that the universe was speaking to me through a megaphone. It was practically screaming at me. I knew the message had something to do with timelines and travelling to the past. But I didn’t know exactly what I was being told.

In 2021, I found myself watching a Science fiction drama on HBO called The Nevers, which was about “aliens” from the future trying to affect change in 19th century Victorian England. They do this largely through people with intuitive and psychic gifts that are referred to as “The Touched.” The main character, Zephyr Alexis, is a woman from the future who enters the body of Amalia, a Victorian era widow who dies by suicide. Zephyr’s consciousness now operates Amalia’s body. In so doing, she brings her future-based consciousness and knowledge from other planets and dimensions of time, to try and influence change in the past.

In 2023, another Netflix show grabbed my attention: a Science fiction miniseries called Bodies. It was about four different detectives stretched out over four different years in completely different eras: 1890, 1941, 2023 and 2053. In each of these years, each one of the four detectives discovers the exact same dead body in the exact same street, under the exact same circumstances. As each detective starts investigating the mystery, they each eventually come across information that reveals they are not the only detective who has ever tried to solve this exact same crime.

Eventually, the four detectives find a way to communicate with each other across time and space to collectively solve the case. In so doing, they are trying to break a time loop that has been repeating itself over and over and over again, with far-reaching consequences that impact the fate of the entire world. The outcome involves a future version of one of the detectives confronting a past version of herself, to try to help her past self get “right” what she initially got “wrong” the first time.

This was all fascinating to me, and it resonated in a way that didn’t make logical sense. I’ve always been a very linear thinker and it’s hard for me to see time as nonlinear or to understand how time travel could even work. Nonetheless, these themes around time and its malleability have kept finding me, over and over again — and I always find it very compelling even when I don’t feel like I understand it.

A few months later, in early 2024, I had a session with Jennifer from Metatron Is Speaking. In that session, she gave me an unbelievable piece of information that Metatron had asked her to tell me about my soul. She said my soul has cosmic knowledge obtained through lifetimes on 7D planets, including parallel dimensions, manipulating time / space and altering timelines.

She said, “You are what is known as a ‘time jumper.’ You have current lifetimes (and past lifetimes) as part of a galactic police force from Sirius C that protect time from being changed by individuals who know how to move through time.”

Guys: a police force that protects time from being changed! That is pretty much the exact premise of Bodies, that Netflix miniseries I had been so fascinated by.

Once I started getting my head around this idea that my twin flame is actually a past incarnation of me and that I am, effectively, a future incarnation of the same soul, I started seeing recent revelations of my journey in a whole new light.

Everything that I had watched him do, had been like watching a real-time replay of things that I had done in a past life. When he decided to break up with me, I grieved this deeply, and heavily, like a tragic death that I had been trying to prevent, but failed.

It went so far beyond a feeling that I was losing a mere “relationship.” I was watching him (myself) reject his own soul, and I think I knew how that was going to end. I think I knew what it was going to do to him. I knew that he was giving his soul away to matrix-based energies that were just going to suck him dry. And I knew there was nothing I could do to make him see differently.

I knew what this was going to do to me and my experience. I knew that I was going to end up healing — within my own life — everything that he couldn’t and wouldn’t face within himself. I knew that all that pain he wouldn’t face was going to be felt by me. When you think of “divine feminine” and “divine masculine” as two separate souls, that doesn’t seem fair at all. When you start seeing them as past and future versions of the same soul, suddenly, it seems a lot more fair. Suddenly, it makes sense on a whole new level.

Then there was the time in 2015 that I had bumped into him and his karmic partner walking down a particular street, and my eventual realization that there was something deeply wrong about the energy of that relationship as well as the energy of the very land that he was walking on when I saw him.

There was the slow discovery that my own physical sense of discomfort in that situation was revealing a dark truth about the energies at work in his life. He had been virtually engulfed in dark energies — through relationships as well as his physical surroundings. I could see and sense that darkness in ways that he evidently could not; because his senses were dulled and his consciousness was lowered.

Then, when I turned to a shaman in 2021 to help me to heal, this person was compromised by those same dark energies, which used her to energetically suck me dry. The karmic loop was repeating over again. The things he had done were repeating through me, in this new situation. But this time, I wasn’t a man pouring his energy into addictions and codependent relationships. This time, I was a woman pouring her energy into a parasitic relationship with a healer who was energetically doing the exact same thing to me that addiction and codependency had done to my twin flame.

This time, I eventually figured out that I was being tricked and trapped into repeating an insidious karmic loop that was masked as “help,” “healing” and even sisterly “love.” In fact, that karmic situation was stealing my life force energy and keeping me weak.

This time, I eventually escaped that loop and found my way to helping myself. I then was able to find new, better, divinely guided healers who were able to help me reclaim my power and restore the energy in my solar plexus which was, by then, badly damaged.

This time, I figured out, exposed and released myself from the generational curse that had been keeping my ancestors going in nonstop loops of self-sabotage that were consistently dragging them into lower timelines of existence.

That is what this had always been about: these sabotage energies were meant to lower my vibration and pull me onto a lower timeline where spiritual ascension would not be achievable. This is what I watched happen to him, and this is what almost happened to me.

This was a war between higher and lower timelines.

If I am the future version of my twin flame, this means that I was able to see what he hadn’t seen, and I was able to heal what he hadn’t healed — because I was coming with a future perspective and a more evolved consciousness.

Even then, I was still tricked, trapped and manipulated by those exact same energies that had attacked him; but this time, I was armed with more self-mastery to eventually overcome them in the end.

This is why, divine feminine, when you heal yourself, you heal the other — because the “other” is you. There is no “other.” You are simply benefitting from hindsight, because that person is you, in the past. And you are them, in the future.

As all of this started taking shape in my mind, I was stunned. And I heard, in my mind, my spirit guides talking to me as my twin flame, calling me by his name. They said, “We love you.” It struck me at the deepest level of my being. I remembered, yet again, that I am him.

Try it for yourself and let that sink in. Think of your twin flame’s name, and hear your guides speaking to you as them. See yourself as the future version of them, who gets a “do-over” and a chance to get it right this time. See if that shifts your perspective on the whole thing. You might find it to be one of the most profound experiences you’ve ever had.

No matter what he did or didn’t do in this lifetime, he is loved. Nothing shows this more than the fact that he was given the opportunity to come back, through me, and get right whatever he got wrong in the past. He was given the opportunity to solve the mystery this time, and to transcend the energies that had kept him suppressed in the past.

This profound realization brought me right back to the energy I had connected with back in February 2022, when I had had a deep sense of inner knowing that my twin flame and I are one being.

But at that time, I was still working with that shaman. And in our sessions, she was repeatedly bringing in unsolicited messages which reinforced the mental concept that my twin flame and I were separate. I realize now that she was being used to pull me out of that deep connection to self as a way of keeping me in separation consciousness and thus on a lower timeline.

I hope this perspective helps you as much as it has helped me and my understanding. It is ultimately not about trying to make that other incarnation of yourself do anything specific or to behave differently.

It is about extending compassion to that past version of yourself and recognizing the different level of consciousness from which they are operating. It is seeing and recognizing your own mirror image in that person when you reflect upon their behaviours. It is taking full advantage of the opportunity that you now have to do things differently from a more evolved, expanded consciousness and a higher perspective.

It does not mean they will never wake up. They might. But I believe that those of us who identify as “divine feminines” are coming from a future-based, expanded consciousness that entered this specific time in human history to help elevate and ascend human consciousness. We are the ones from the future who have travelled into the past to help past versions of ourselves get it right this time.

I believe we are laying the groundwork for more awakenings to happen across the entire human collective. It starts with elevating our own consciousness and energetic frequency. It starts with holding a higher frequency vibration by allowing more love energy to purify and cleanse your own energetic field.

I believe we can achieve this simply by shining the light of awareness onto the shadows reflected in the “masculine’s” behaviour. We can do this by simply by extending compassion to that past version of self. We can look at what that behaviour is reflecting back to us in terms of unresolved energies residing within our consciousness and perhaps manifesting in very different ways.

We can then recognize and seize the opportunity to respond differently to the same energies within our own bodies and our own lives. We don’t control the other body, but we certainly control our own. And ultimately, when we do this consciously and with unconditional self-love and compassion, we are unilaterally healing the single consciousness that we share with that being.

Is your mind blown yet? Because mine is!

I hope this perspective has opened up and expanded your awareness as much as it did mine.

Thank you for reading!